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Sunday, March 30, 2008
Begitu berat melangkah, Melihat kau bersamanya, Adakah aku yg salah, Atau hanya helah saja... Ku masih mencintai diri kamu, Walau kau menjauh, Ku rindu... Kau bagaikan udara, Yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup diatas dunia, Tanpamu ku lemah, Pasti aku tak berdaya, Kerna kau mahakarya cinta, Hoo..Hooh... Biarpun kau tidak mahu, Menerima kasih daku, Ku kan setia bersamamu, Sehingga ke akhir waktu... Ku tetap menyayangi diri kamu, Biar kau berlalu, Ku rindu... Kau bagaikan udara, Yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup diatas dunia, Tanpamu ku lemah, Pasti aku tak berdaya, Kerna engkau mahakarya... Kau takkan dapat aku lupakan, Kerna kau lah punca cinta kita, Mengajarkan ku erti bahagia, Temanilahku semula... Kau bagaikan udara, Yang membantu aku untuk terus hidup diatas dunia, Tanpamu ku lemah, Pasti aku tak berdaya, Kerna kau mahakarya cinta, Hoo..Hooh, Tanpamu ku lemah, Pasti aku tak berdaya, Kerna kau mahakarya cinta... Dengarlah pesanan daku, Yang masih akan menunggu... Labels: What Am I Doing Wrong Saturday, March 29, 2008      Tdy's a big day!!! Gt a msg frm Wan telling me 2 meet him @ JE @ 08:30am so i gt ready straight away after solat subur (06:30am). Had my breakfast & was about 2 leave the house when i gt another msg frm Wan telling me that the meeting time has changed to 10am. I went 0n9 for a while then left @ abt 9:30am & made my way 2 JE MRT stn. I reached JE @ ard 10am but Wan was no where 2 be found. So i msged him asking where he was but he did'nt reply. I waited there 4 him till 10:30am but no wrd frm him so i called & msged him once again but then he replied saying that he juz woke up. I went dwn 2 walk ard in Popular Bookshop & went bck up 2 see if he has arrived but he's nowhere 2 be seen. So i sat dwn & waited till i feel asleep. He finally came @ 11:30am & we went 2 draw some $ for rhe day. We took the train 2 Bishan & we talked all the way there. U really made me think alot sak! Sigh...Thx ah eh... We reached Bugis & went 2 Junction 8 to meet up with the guyz. The place was packed with rockers. I'v nvr seen so many rockers in 1 place b4 in my life. I was looking ard for Latiff & the guyz when i saw Raup & Bob beign interviewed by the reporters & having their pics taken. Cool!!! I greeted them & they said that they gt thru!! OMG!! COOL!! I congratulated them & they told me that Latiff & the guyz r already in the waiting area. So we gt our spot rite nxt 2 the speakers & waited as a couple or grps wents 1st & 1 of the grp is this rock band called Silver Tears. U guyz were AWESOME!! I'm a fan after that performance sak!! I'll supprt u guyz other than my frens of cos. Hehe. SERIOUSLY!! They were great!! Blew me away with that performance! They gt thru to the nxt round 2. Congrats!! Ouhkay!! Then it's Latiff's & the guyz turn 2 perform. Jamal (Real name: Hakim) looked so nervous & stiff. He wore white while the rest of the band was wearing black. Apa sak?! Nak stand out ke pe? LoL.They finally gave their performance after tuning up & all questions asked. Srry guyz...Jamal juz is'nt suited 2 Latiff's rock theme...really srry u guyz did'nt get thru. But dun give up k guyz! Continue 2 practice & i'm sure u guyz will get even better & who noes mayb u guyz will make it thru the nxt Anugerah Band k. Nvr give up! We went dwn & bot drinks frm 7/11 cos datplace was so warm sak! Seriously!! Like a hot oven!! We waited 4 Latiff's 2 pass hi things 2 his band members then Wan, Ali, Oz, Shamir & I went up 2 see Wan's bro who's also taking part in the audition. We went dwn shortly after that & rendezvous with the guyz @ Mac then we made our way 2 the MRT stn 2 go 2 Sun Tech City 2 pick up Fir who's working @ Delifrance. But there was a little misshap cos Ali & Shamir went ahead thinking that we took the train b4 us. LoL. So we asked them 2 alight & take the same train. We laughed all the way 2 City Hall thx 2 Acah, Badd, Khir & Latiff. Then i saw a familiar face!! My childhood fren Zarina but i dun think she recognised me. I'm nt even 100% sure it's her. LoL. Guess we both look dif nw huh? Wan was like Za!! U noe dat girl? Intro lah!! I was like huh? No lah childhood fren ony but i'm nt sure if its really is her. Skali salah! Malu sak! So we did'nt say hi & gt dwn @ City Hall & walk 2 Sun Tech City. We meet up with Fir gt some food, sat dwn to chat & waited 4 Fir 2 finish wrk, which is @ 3pm. It was oredy 3:15pm but his manager was nowhere 2 be found. Like WTH. Oz was like dancing & doing Pitong impersonation (Rabak Sak Korang!!) while we were waiting for Fir cos it took quite some time b4 he finally got changed. We were laughing like hell sak. The group was then seperated into 2. The 1st grp will be gg ahead 2 bugis 2 eat & my grp will be gg 2 accompany Badd to her interview. Congrats Badd!! For getting the job!! We went 2 take a train 2 Bugis & was walking in Bugis Junction when Fir became silly again & got wet as a result. LoL. What were u thinking bro?! Like seriously! We went 2 meet up with Pika & Sankari @ the nearby coffeeshop. OMG!! Miss u guyz sak!! We took lots pf pics while we were eating but nt frm my cam ah cos i wanna save batt. I did'nt get 2 fully recharge my batt b4 i left juz nw. Damned. I had chicken rice! It was yummy! & Wan had wantan!! OMG!! Keep that away frm me!! I dun wanna get allergies again. After that we went 2 the bus stop 2 take a train to Orchard but some1 was missing. Fir was missing! Hehe! He gt stomach ache. Wakaka! Kecoh pe! The whole bunch of us were making jokes & taking pics @ the bus stop like it was ours sak! We were laughing non stop. Hehe. I took s1ome time but Fir finally came bck & the whole bunch of us went Eeeeeee! WHile holding our noses. Wakakaka! Then we took the bus 2 Orchard & Sankari asked me 2 help her fix her watch but then the bus braked & the metal thingy fell but luckily i manage u find it & fix her watch. Takut sikit sak aku! I finally gt a seat after a few stops but hen Ali cam & juz sat on me! OMG!! Like WTH!! My keys in my left pocket was like poking into my thigh sak! PAIN!!! There was nvr a silent moment. We even laughed in the bus. OAC oiiii!!! We reached Orchard & gt off when Ali juz ran across the bz roads!! Like WTH!!! CRAZY ASSED!! U WANNA DIE IZZIT?!! Then the rest of us crossed the road & met up with Ani & Huda, took some pics & went 2 Takashimaya 2 pick up Eddy & Sharir. We watched Rythm De Passion outside Taka. They're so COOL!! Then was joined by Eddy, Sharir & Zaki. Cool hair bro!! Then we took more pics & was walking near Sakura when Sankari's slippers broke. So some of the girls went 2 buy her a new pair. Sweet kan dorang. What r frens for rite? Fir, Eddy & Sharir went ahead 1st but we caught up with them. We all decide 2 sit dwn @ this great place with a great view. Dunno the name actually. Nvr been here b4. Took some pics when Latiff asked us 2 share our worst & best experiances. I was like Awww Man! Dun wan ah! Then Raup asked me y i was so against the idea & said that he'll share his ifi shared mine so i did. I did'nt noe ur a racer sak?! COOL!! Then Fir & the guyz started sharing ghost stories. Hmm @ that hr...i dun think so. Dun get me wrong guyz. I'm nt afraid of ghosts. It's juz that those things dun like us talking abt them & telling ghost stories @ nite is like adding oil 2 the fire, if ya noe what i mean. 2 tell u guyz the truth, i'v been seeing these things ever since i was in kindergarten & have ony stop seeing them recently. So i'm used 2 them. juz imagine nearly 23 yrs of ghost storied piled up, just waiting 2 be told. Juz teel me when u guyz r free & i'll tell my stories but nt @ nite k. I'v learned my lesson. After telling ghost stories, we decided 2 officially end our OAC outing. So we walked 2 the MRT stn & sid gdbye 2 Acah who's gg 2 meet up with her other friends @ Esplanade. Time check 11pm. We were chatting otw 2 Je when we receive a call frm Mahen all the way frm Australia!! Cool!! Pika got so teary as usuall. Miss u guyz ah. Cya in 2 weeks!The phone call lasted ard 2omins & b4 we noe it, we're already @ JE. So we said our gd byes & Wan, Fir & I went 2 2 sit @ the Interchange @ chat 4 a few more mins b4 taking the bus hm. I reached hm @ ard 12:15am. I checked her blog, gt worried & msged her but there was no reply so i took a bath b4 gg on9 to transfer the pics i took tdy. Then i gt a msg frm her saying she's ok & asked me y i'm still up.Ooops. I quickly pass my pics 2 khir & went 2 sleep. Hehe. Miss ya. I had lots of fun tdy & hope that we can hang out again in the future. Some of the guys did'nt turn up tdy. Waisted sak. Thx 4 reading & Tc Labels: Endless Fun Friday, March 28, 2008 Woke up @ 12nn tdy...was really tired...i wanna sleep more but i have 2 go 4 Fri prayers. So pull myself off the bed, bathed & made my way 2 Hasanah Mosque @ Teban. I walked all the way there as usual. I prefer walking there than taking a bus actually. While i was walking 2 Teban, i gt a call frm Fir asking me where i was then & said that he'll meet me ltr in the afternoon. I was like huh? He's gg 2 donate blood tdy...I hate needles. Hehe. No joke! That thing is huge!!! Nooo way man!! He tot i was gg oso but no thx bro. I reached the mosque at ard 1pm. I was 2 early...i usually reach there ard 1:20pm. By then the place should have been packed but i dun have 2 wait long 4 Fri prayers 2 starts. Oh well. Prayers ended ard 2pm & i was otw dwn (i was on the 2nd floor) when i saw Fir & his bro in front of me. So i waved & said hi. We walked bck tgr cos i wanted 2 buy some chicken rice for breakfast @ Teban. The chicken rice there is very2 yummy. Hehe. We reached their block & we said our gd byes. I went 2 buy my chicken rice, stop by 7/11 for a Super Big Gulp (Ice Lemon T) & walked straight home. Took abt 10 to 15 min to get frm Pandan to Teban if u walk @ my speed. Hehe. Listened 2 my mp3 all the way bck. Reached hm, ate my chicken rice while watching Fir's WWE Royal Rumble cd. OMG!! Best PPV yet!! Thx Fir!! I like watching WWE wrestling!! I support team rated RKO cos of Edge!! He's my fav wrestler!! Dun ask y cos i'll have lots 2 say.Hehe. I went on9 after that & guess wat?! Linda was on9! It's been quite some time since the last time she was on9 & we chat till Magrib ( 7+pm). Then i logged off, lye on my bed & concentrated on poetry... I hope u liked it...srry if the format's a little off though...dunno y. I really meant what i say. Tried 2 keep it short but i gt lots 2 say as usual. I went on9 shortly after that & asked srtstf 2 get a song 4 me. Thx alot srtstf!! TyTyTy!! I did'nt feel like blogging cos tdy was quite boring... But my loyal fan wants me 2 so i could'nt resist. Hehe. Once i type i could'nt stop till i fin. Hehe. I'll be sleeping early tdy cos she asked me 2 Hehe. Miss ya. Time check 11:30pm Thats the end of tdy's post... I hope it dos'nt bore u... My life is'nt always exciting ok...LoL Thx 4 reading & Tc Labels: Juz another day Thursday, March 27, 2008     Woke up early tdy. I meet up with Fir under his block & we went 2 eat breakfast @ the nearby coffee shop. We also went 2 buy some chicken rice 4 Fir's mom then went up & drop it off @ his house, pick up his bro & went 2 the gym. We took 97 to Boon Lay Int then took a nother bus 2 the gym as usual. We reached the gym ard 11:50am. We actually wanted 2 take it easy tdy but somehow we gt a little carried away. Hehe. I did 2 sets of 4km run on the Bicycle Machine, Sit ups & Dumb Bell as usual. Then after a few hrs of working out, we went 2 check our weight. Mine was 79kg. I was happy cos when i checked it on Mon it was 82kg. Yay! I lost weight! Then we decided 2 sit @ the rest area 2 relax. We decided dat we had enuf 4 tdy & prepared 2 leave. Left the gym abt ard 2+ then we went 2 wait 4 Pika under her blog. I played my PSP while waiting 4 her. She was late as usual. Dah biasa dah. I did'nt even bother looking @ my watch hehe. It ok ah Pika, dun wrry bout it. We all noe ur like dat hehe. Pika finally went dwn & did u noe what she said? She said: Oiii tunggu sapa lagi? Lets go lah! We were like: Kaklar ke pe ah Pika! Then we go 2 JP banquet 2 eat. I had Beef Hor Fann. After lunch, we took the train 2 JE MRT STN then went dwn 2 buy my new earpiece @ Popular's CD Rama & then we sat dwn near the newspaper shop 2 wait 4 Hari. Hari finally cam with his mom , sis & his huge luggage bag. His mom wanted 2 give him a hug but he dun wan. Apa sak Hari!! Ur mom wants a hug b4 u leave & dun wan? WTH's wrong with u man?! Like Seriously! U'll be gone for 2 weeks...show a little LOVE lah! We then told Hari that we'll meet him @ the airport cos Azhar is waiting 4 us so went ahead. Took the train & meet up with Azhar then we went 2 the airport. Azhar was pretty dwn...i won't mention it here. Stay strong k bro. We had fun in the MRT otw 2 the airport & we nearly miss the stop if it was'nt 4 Steven. Thx man!! We took lots of pics in the Airport. Hehe. We reached there ard 6+ but Hari & the other who r gg overseas hav'nt reach yet. We went 2 take pics of the Airplanes @ the hanger while waiting 4 them. So we decided 2 eat @ BK while waiting 4 them there. Hari came 1st followed by Bumi & Mahen but Singh still hav'nt reach yet & all the guy's passports r with him. LoL. We took more pics @ BK & Pika gt her BK crown...like wth's wrong with this picture...Pika2...gasak kau lah. I was bored so me & Steven played oyr PSP. Fir & the others pass the time by chasing Hari around & tickling him. Hehe. Mahen stayed away frm the spotlight by talking 2 Pika abt Fir's blog.Hehe. It was hilarious seeing Hari screaming for help cos they were tickling him non stop. Hehe. Singh finally came @ ard 9+ with his entire family & his luggage along with every1's passports. We took a grp photo & they went 2 register 4 their flight. More pics were taken b4 they finally decide 2 check in. The atmosphere was very emotional as we gave our final hugs 2 them... Pika gt very emo & cried...Aww dun cry lah Pika. They'll be bck in 2 weeks what. We all tried 2 console Pika & gave her a group hug but she cried even more...aww man. Seriously...i can't see ppl cry lah. We waved @ them & continued 2 wave till they board the plane. We said farewell 2 their parents & were walking 2 the skytrain when we all received a msg frm Mahen telling us that he LOVES us all & that we can really make him cry. Awww Mahen cried. We're really gonna miss u guyz! Mahen, Hari, Singh & Bumi. Have a safe trip there & bck guyz! Have fun & be carefull when ur there. We'll be praying 4 ur safe journeys. We'll c ya in 2 weeks time. It was very emotional cos they're our close friends frm A.W.A & we're like a family nw. We took the skytrain & took the MRT. I listened 2 my mp3 & slept all the way 2 JE MRT stn. I was really tired. We said our gd byes 2 the guyz while Fir & I took our usual bus home. I reached hm @ abt 12am. I was really tired & was chatting with Azhar & Pika when i got a msg frm a special some1 @ 12:43am. Dat made my day thx! Miss ya! I continued 2 chat with Azhar & Pika till 3am in the mng while writing this post b4 finally calling it a day. I really had fun tdy. Thx 4 reading & Tc Labels: Farewell and Safe journeys Guyz Wednesday, March 26, 2008 Tdy's a nrm day just like any other. Went on9 & chat with my close friends...they're gg thru alot of complications...so i'm writing this post hoping that it will help them. Everything dat happens in our life, happens 4 a reason. What happens in the past will determine who u r in the future. Life's road is nvr straight. It'll be full of obsticles & every road leads 2 another. But be strong, always give it ur all & whatever happens, dun ever give up half way or u'll live 2 regret it. If there is a path u want 2 take, be it 2 start a relationship or simply 2 start something. Be prepared 4 it. If there's some1 willing 2 take that path with u then ask urself...is he/she serious? Then ask urself...do u feel the same way? If u do? Dun juz stay & do ntg cos he/she might nt be willing 2 wait & it's worst if he/she thinks u ony think of them as a friend, find some1 else & regret it once they noe ur true feelings. If u dun? Then dun give them any hope...u'll ony hurt them if u do this & u might regret it in the future...but whatever u do...dun shut them out of ur life...seriously...that's cruel...the least u can do is tell them the truth...if they truely love u then they'll be happy 4 u. U'll end up with a close friend but nvr fgt that they LOVE u. If they're like me then that won't change no matter hw long it's been. Nvr ever look dwn on urself...what u think of urself is nvr the same as what ppl thinks of u...SERIOUSLY!! If u dun like what u see in the mirror then do somthing abt it. Dun juz lock urself up in ur room feeling srry 4 urself...it's pathetic!! If u dun like ur body then go 2 the gym & work out. If u dun like ur pimples then go c a doctor & give it proper treatments. If u dun like the way u dress then go 4 a makeover. If u have a bad temper & hate it then seek advice & learn 2 be patient. This will take time but u have 2 be determined. But Most Importantly! Dun change urself juz because ppl say u shud! change urself becos u want 2! Ony then will u truely change... Nobody's perfect...every1 have their flaws...if u love some1...u'll have 2 except everything abt that person...The GOOD, The BAD & The UGLY. If u can't? Then i suggest that u dun start @ all. If u can? Then be patient...if they love u...they'll change 4 u. Love can do wonders. I'm nt kidding. There will always be obsticles: Misunderstandings...3rd Party...Parents...Tight schedule or Simply Feel Neglected. But always stay strong & believe me when i say that ur stronger if u work together. Dun ever try 2 solve ur problems alone...Seriously if ur a couple then confide with each other. Y shud u face it alone when u have each other rite? Trust, Commitment, Sacrifice, Friendship, Mutual Understanding, Love, Patience, Loyalty & Happiness If ur relationship dun have this in it then work on it. Dun ever rush...take things slowly but always take steps 2 work on it. There's no such thing as a perfect relationship but there is such a thing as a perfect moment. But 2 those of u who have juz fallen out of love...always remember that ur nvr alone...u have ur family & ur close friends who cares abt u. Always think abt that b4 u do something stupid...& to those who have lost their loved 1's due 2 sickness or accidents... Be strong & think of what that person would want u 2 do...would he/she want u 2 spend the rest of ur days crying & feeling sad 4 them...i think nt rite? So think abt their last wishes...what they want u 2 do while they were still with u & try ur best 2 fullfill them...ony then will u find ur peace... Cherish the 1's dat r dear 2 you cos u'll nvr noe when u might loose them... Live ur life free from regrets & guilt... Live it 4 dat special smile... Live 4 all those priceless moments in life... I hope this post can be of some help 2 u guyz... Cos this is what i'v learned so far in my life... Thx 4 reading & Tc Labels: Nobody's perfect Tuesday, March 25, 2008 25th March Just Another Day Woke up tdy with no plans whatsoever...tot i will juz stay @ home & play my PSP...boooring...i went on9 after breakfast & chat with my bro MZ...i really feel sad 4 u bro...but my advice 2 u is, 2 nvr give up & always try harder k. I'll pray dat things will get better 4 u...u'v had it rough...if u need some1 2 talk 2, ya noe i'm always free. Then Sabby went on9! Ohaiyo!! (means gd mng in Jap) . I send her some pics & we chat for a few mins then she had 2 accompany her sis somewhere. I updated my blog...while chatting with the rest of the guys. Was bored...so i told them that i'll be logging out once i'm done updating. I really wanna go out but i dun noe who 2 ask... So i logged out & played my psp when i heard my phone rang. 1 miss call frm cuz so i called bck. She asked me if i can accompany her eat beef noodles @ Clementi. Yay!! Sure Cuz!! I'm bored @ home doing ntg & i told her that we shud go look for her sis's B'Day gift while we're @ it. So we met up @ Clementi ard 3+. The weather was BLAZING hot!! We went 2 eat beef noodles & we chat abt what kinda gifts 2 buy 4 Sis Sha2. Then she told me that sis mentioned wanting a new slipper cos she said dat all her slippers r worn out. So ok then! Slippers! Nw where 2 get it? NO IDEA! Hehe. I decided 2 call Linda but she did'nt pick up then i called Pika & she told me 2 go check Far East or City Hall but the prob is that Cuz will be meeting Mystery @ 6+ & it's already 4+ so we dun have much time actually. I asked Pika 2 come along but she's lazy as usual. PEMALAS! Hehe. The original plan was 2 just accompany Cuz 2 eat beef noodles so it's ok. We went 2 top up her ez-link when suddently she asked: Bro nk try Causeway Point?! Oky Doky! Causeway Point it is! I hav'nt been there 4 quite some time nw. It took us a few mins & cuz had complications so her meeting with Mystery was cancelled. Dun sad ah cuz...this things happen. She asked me abt my ex on the way there but...srry cuz...i dun really remember...it's complicated actually...dun look so sad. 2 tell u the truth i ony remember 50% of my past with her...it's dat bad. 2 put it in simple forms...i blogged them out. 2 tell u the truth...my head hurts when i think abt it. I hate it. But ony when i think abt Sha. B4 we know it, we're already @ Woodlands MRT STN. I saw Azrun near the MRT STN. I said hi & he tot cuz was my GF. Wakakaka! No lah! After we said our gdbyes, Cuz told me abt hw she met Mystery. Aww cute kan hehe. We went into this gift shop & there was this really cute puppy doll hehe. I can't stop touching it sak. Hehe. Cuz was like Eeeee but she touched it anyway. LOL. Then we saw this cute little Seal thingy which was actually a little safe (Piggy Bank ah). She said dat the seal's face look like her & smiled. Wakakaka! Sama sak! I asked her 2 do it again but she was shy. Wakakaka! Then we oso saw this really Big Fake Rose, it was like as long as my leg. Cuz said something & we laughed like hell! Cute pe gitu! Wakakaka! We walked out of the gift shop & went into an accessory shop (Biasa Jugak) Hehe. I saw this really cool & bulky wrist thingy but as usual she said DUN BUY!! Oii! Asal tk leh seh! Hehe. I constantly need ppl 2 tell me that or i'll end up buying all i like. Hehe. But very nice what!! Then we saw a shop selling lots of slippers. Finally!!! But the prices were ridiculously high!! OMG!! $50+ for a baby size slipper is INSANE!! The prices there are all $40+ & above. Oh ya! Pika! I saw a cute little Spongebob slipper but it was baby size & it's $50+ but cute ah! Hehe. Can hang it in ur rm or something.Hehe. After that cuz asked if we wanna go home onot. We went into the final gift shops then walk 2 the MRT STN & said gd bye. She thank me for following accompanying her dat day & we said our gd byes. She took the bus hm & i took the train. I slept all the way 2 JE MRT. Tired ah. Then when i checked my hp, there were 3 miss calls. The number was unknown. Hmm. I just ignored but when i was walking 2 the bus stop, there was a call again. I picked up & it was Lilly. In case u guyz r wondering who she is, she was 1 of the girls i dated a while bck. I was really dwn bck then...needed some1 to fill in the empty gaps but...i found out that there's ony 1 person rite nw that can fill it & i'm sort of with her nw. Hehe. So i said no to Lilly & she cried bck then. Really2 srry. She asked me if i'm ok & that she juz felt like calling...hmm. Felt like calling for 4 times? She asked me if i'm free tmrw. I'm free but i said i was'nt...really2 srry. I was thinking abt Sabby when i said that...rindu sak... Lilly sounded kinda sad...i think she noticed that i juz brushed her off. So i told her that i'm seeing some1 @ this moment. She said Ohh...Dat girl eh. I said ya. She said she was happy 4 me. I said thx, srry, tc & i hanged up. Sad sak. I did'nt wanna hear her cry again. I can't function when ppl cry...felt so guilty...i was always single but unavailable but i can't say no when they asked me out. I learned my lesson. I'm srry guyz... I took the bus & listened 2 my mp3 all the way home. Felt like calling Sabby so many times but...scared she's bz...she did ask me 2 msg her & dat she prefer msgs but i'm trying so hard 2 keep my feelings inside cos i dun wanna scare her away but seriously...rindu sak...so i end up nt calling & for some reason i can't come up with any sweet msgs...guess i'm holding bck. I dun even noe y. Damn. I hope u dun feel neglected. Reached home & was so damn tired. Watched Season 2 of Heroes after that, when my bro said that he wanted 2 use the lappy so i gave way, lie dwn on the bed & fell asleep till mng... This is my blog...the stuff i go thru evry single day... Hope it dos'nt bore my reader & 2 those who r loyal, I thank you. Thx 4 reading & Tc Labels: My days Monday, March 24, 2008 I woke up late tdy @ 9am+ still feels empty inside...sigh. Switched on my lappy & logged into MSN while i get ready my stuff 2 go 2 the gym. I'm suppose to meet them @ 2pm but wanted 2 get a haircut cos my long hair irritates me. Always have & Always will. I went on9 & u noe who's on9!! Yay!! Rindu sak!! We had a nice chat & i told her i'm gg 2 the gym tdy & dat i'll be getting a haircut. She said: tak yar lah...hols keep long hair...hehe. Ouhky! Sabby! Hehe haircut cancelled. Cute pe hehe. Then she told me that she's gg out 2 & hope i won't get mad cos dat guy asked her out...i was worried ah but nt mad hehe. She asked me nt 2 think 2 much & she'll call once she reached hm...omg!! dat was 1st time she said dat seh!! Happy sak aku! LoL! Then we chat abt drinks. Did u noe that green-t is nt gd 4 guys? Cos green-t has ingredients dat kills sperm. Good Luck 2 u'all who frequently drinks green-t! Wakakaka! I wanted 2 chat some more but i was really hungry so we said our gd byes & went 2 eat my breakfast. Had pizza & yong tau fu (dunno if rite spelling onot) lol. Then i called Fir & asked 2 finalise the outing tdy. He asked me 2 leave nw cos they're oredy @ the bus stop otw 2 JE MRT stn. Cepat pe?! It's nt even 1pm yet. I rushed & waited 4 the bus...but the damn bus took abt 1hr 10min 2 come sak!! WTH!! That'll be the last time i'm gonna take a bus there. Frm nw on i'm gonna wait 4 the bus @ the bus stop infront of the church cos there's 4 busses 2 JE frm that bus stop. The bus finally came & i managed 2 reach JE MRT @ 2pm sharp, which was the original plan lol. We took the train 2 Boon Lay Int & took a bus 2 the gym. The we recieved a call frm Hari saying that he'll be joining us ltr. Knowing Hari, he'll probably arrive after we're done working out. lol. Nvm2 lets c if it's true. Hehe. After 1 & a hlf hrs of intense workout plus a few msgs 2 u noe who hehe. Me & the guys were drained, so we sat dwn & chat abt the A.W.A outing we had the other day. We here laughing like hell hehe. We talked abt the part where Hari did the forfeits. Wakakaka! It was freaking hilarious i tell u!! We'll be toking abt it for yrs 2 come hehe. Then Hari finally came. Mahen: Did'nt i tell u dat he'll come when we're all fin? he said. No comments ah bro! lol. Then We changed & meet him @ the stadium. He was preparing 2 run. I looked @ the sky & said: This dos'nt look gd...we better go b4 it rains...plus Pika is meeting us @ JP rite? Then Fir & Mahen said: Alah Pika always late lah...nrm so we might as well take our time. Hehe. Hari ran abt 9 round when it started 2 rain heavily. We were stranded there...we have umbrellas but 4 some reason evry1's nt moving so i juz sat dwn & listened 2 my mp3 then there was that mishap with the msgs...lol srry ya...salah send hehe. Then Pika called Fir & said that she'll go home if we dun make a move nw...Ok2 he said then we took out our umbrellas & walked 2 the nearest bus stop. Fir was playing a fool as usual & Mahen was all wet cause of it. Wakakaka! Then in the bus, Fir was tickling Hari all the way. Wakakaka! Lepak ah korang. We finally reached & met up with her @ the control stn.OMG!! Pika came 1st!! It's a MIRACLE!! Haha. Time check 6:40pm. OMG we were late cos we still need 2 go 2 Queensway Shopping Mall 2 make our A.W.A Polo-T. But we were hungry & told Hari 2 help us convince Pika 2 let us have dinner 1st hehe. Hari went: Oiii i hungry ah!! I wanna eat!! I dun care!! . Then Pika went: Alah!! Then what abt out Polo - T?. The rest of us juz kept quiet & go hehe. Bayeeeeek ah Hari!! Hungry sak!! I had my steak!! WooHoo!! Pika did'nt eat, Fir had his Bee Hoon while Hari & Mahen had their Tom Yam. Mahen & Hari told us abt their funny Balestier stories Wakakaka! U guys sure had fun there huh? I miss toking 2 u guys like this...i bet i'm gonna miss u guys more...but @ least i gt 2 tok 2 u in person...juz imagine...me & u noe who rarely go out...sigh...rindu sak...but it's ok hehe. We took a train 2 Commonwealth, then took a bus 2 Queensway Shopping Mall. Fir was tickling Hari & Mahen all the way there. Evry1 was looking @ us hehe. Mcm we own the bus like dat hehe. Cos Mahen was like: Bus driver help!!! Hari siang2 dah cabut duduk depan cos he's scared Fir will tickle him again hehe. Mahen was like begging 4 the bus 2 reach our destination cos evrytime the bus stops, Fir will start tickling him & Pika had joined in too LOL. Kecoh sak kita in the bus hehe. 1st floor some more. We finally reached Queensway Shopping Mall & we went 2 the shop 2 customise our Polo-T shirts. While the guys was working on our design, Me & Pika went 2 look @ rings. Hehe. Ya! ya! I noe! Rings again! lol. But the designs there ar'nt dat nice ah. Far East better. We went bck 2 the Polo-T shop & saw our designs. After finalising the price & shirt sizes, we're finally done. Yay! We then took bus 198 to go 2 JE. While we were otw there, i told ghost stories 2 Hari hehe. Gerek sak. It's been so long since i told my ghost stories sak. Then when i realised it, i was nearly reaching my house, i told Fir that i'll drop @ JE there & take another bus ah. So i continued with my ghost stories, hehe & Hari was like Fuuuyooooh!! Scaaaary Dey!! Wakakaka!! Then Fir asked me: Mirza we drop @ Boon Lay can? So we can chat some more. Ok set np with me hehe. Then b4 i noe it Pika was asking abt all these personal question? Like what r wet dreams & stuff. OMG!! She's so straight forward but the crazy thing was, Hari answered all her question like it was ntg sak!! Oiii guys!! We're in the bus u noe!! Hari!! Dats It!! He told us abt his ermm past experiences @ M'sia. OMG!! Hw can u tell us dat without feeling embaressed sak?! I think i malu 4 u ah...We were like laughing all the way 2 Boon Lay Int. Then when we reached there, I was really sad 2 say gd bye...Mahen's gg 2 Australia & A.W.A will be seeing him of on Thurs. Gonna miss u lah bro. U tc k. Then i automaticly took out my phone & called her. OMG!! I did'nt even noe what i was doing sak?! When she pick up i was like huh? Why i call her seh? Then gt really nervous all of a sudden...but releaved 2 hear ur voice again ah...miss u a lot... After a few mins ltr we put dwn cos i was so freaking nervous...then me & Fir took the usual bus hm & dropped @ the usual place. Reached hm abt 11+ & after a nice long bath, i watched Fir's WWE cds that i lend frm him till 1pm & went on9 2 get the pics frm Pika. Ak was on9 2 & we chat 4 a while. Nice ***** btw. Ur really gd!! Hehe. I'm sure he'll b happy Hehe. I wanted 2 update my blog but was 2 sleepy & i was writing nonsence LoL so i said Gd nite 2 the guyz the went 2 bed...did'nt even closed the light or even take out my blankets...dat was hw tired i was...rabak pe. That's all i wrote 4 the day. hehe I really miss u guyz!! Esp u!! U noe who u r!! Hehe...Tc u'all & Thx 4 reading. Labels: I'll Cherish Every Single Moment Sunday, March 23, 2008 Woke up tdy feeling empty...somthing's missing...looked up @ the clock...hear the seconds ticking away...sigh...something's missing...what's this heavy feeling? The weekends has been very boring...all spent by playing my PSP. Games just dun have the same effect on me anymore... In the past, i can spend the whole day in my room playing my PS without even eating...Then when i finally look @ the clock, it'll already b night time...i was a gamer & a really gd 1 @ dat...won lots of tournaments & dat'll b my pocket $. She asked me 2 change & i did...try 2 play less games & go out more she said...If ony she can c me nw hehe. This is what i do when i gt ntg 2 do @ hm...i'll lie on my bed & have my flash backs...i need 2 go out...i hate staying @ home...but everytime i say i'm gg out, my mom will say: Stay rumah lah...dah lama abg tk stay rumah...mama & papa miss abg tau...then my mom will ask that question: Abg sayang mama tk...mom always ask me that but i always answer with maybe or dunno... That word is sacred 2 me...i'v ony said that word to 2 ppl in my life & if u hear me say it then i really2 mean it...even if i dun show it. But it dos'nt mean that i dun care abt the other ppl in my life. Dun get me wrong! I got lots of close friends & family whom i care abt. It's juz dat i have my own believes/philosophy. But wanting 2 say that 2 some1 but scared they'll freak is another matter. Do u ever get that strong feeling 2 tell that person juz hw much u love them, that u'll do anything 4 them but u can't cos ur scared that he/she dos'nt feel the same way or they'll freak & shut you out. I'm sure u guyz have riiite? Feels heavy inside...feels like u just wanna lie on the bed & wither away...sigh. Boo2 called me ystdy. In case u guyz r wondering who's Boo2? Well...he's my Best Friend frm NS. He asked if i wanna go out with my NS buddies 2 play soccer but i was tired frm the A.W.A outing & i told him that i juz wanna stay home & rest 4 the day. Srry ya Bro! I'm juz nt in the mood. He always asks me out 2 hang out & play LAN games but i'll decline 70% of the time. What can i say bro?! Ur timing sux! But when it dos'nt, we'll have a BLAST playing LAN games either with the guyz or even if it's juz us. Thx Bro! U always blanja me & i'll nvr fgt dat! I'll blanja u some day k! I promise! I was sooo bored...even when Sabby went on9 & chat but ony 4 a short while. Then i remembered something! I'v been wanting 2 watch Heroes on9 4 sooo long but juz did'nt have the time. I ended up watching the whole of Season 1 & a few eps frm Season 2! Woohoo! AWESOME show!! I then msged Fir on9 & asked if he wants 2 go 2 the gym tmrw. But he was'nt sure abt it cos he'll b gg 2 school with Mahen 2 get something. I really hope we can go 2 the gym tmrw...i need 2 keep me mind off things & staying home is'nt helping @ all. K lah i'm gonna end my post here...ntg exciting happened tdy...Booooring!! Thx 4 reading & Take Care Labels: Feels Empty Inside Friday, March 21, 2008      20th March & 21th March A.W.A's 1st Outing
We then brot tickets 4 the whole club & took the monorail 2 Sentosa, then we alighted & took a tour bus nxt. We stayed on the bus & took some pics 2 pass the time cos Hari's still can't b contacted yet. he dun have a Hp & his hm phone is engaged. We then alighted @ 1 of the stops & walked 2 Palawan Beach. Took some time 2 get there but we had fun along the way lol. We reached the beach & was seperated into 3 grps. I was in grp 3 tgr with, Azhar, Azmi, Ad & Eddy. We were then asked 2 come up with a grp name & cheer. It did'nt take us much time 2 come up with it hehe. I nvr ever come up with a grp cheer dat fast b4, i guess evry1 was very excited & we r all gd friends hehe. Then we moved 2 our spot by the beach, lay dwn our things on the matt & started our cheers. It was fun!! Evry1 was into it except 4 my grp ah. I gt Eddy & he kept messing up the cheer!! plus Azmi & Azhar was new. This was their 1st time gg out with the club & Ad was the mc so we had our difficulites but it's ok hehe...Sigh. They made me the leader...y must i always be the leader seh...i'm a bad leader...nvm. Grp 2 won the cheering comp & we moved on with the rest of the games. Ouhky! The 1st game was Hands & Legs!! My grp messed up this game & came in last...we were all blur hehe. Nvm2. The 2nd game is catterpillar & once again we lost...grp 2 won dat game. I then gt a msg...i read the msg & i was shocked...coincidence?! I called her, we talked & she asked me 2 have fun. Hehe thx. Then Ad said that the nxt game will be the last game b4 lunch. Aww man we got 2 win this 1!! The game is wheelbarrow!! WooHoo my fav!! We got the advantage in this 1. Cos my grp r all strong with pull ups hehe including Eddy!! So guess what?! We OWNED them!!! Wakakaka!! Yeah finally grp 3 is finally winning & our team wrk is getting better. We then took our cup noodles & went 2 the 7/11 to buy some drinks, get our hot water & eat. After lunch we went bck 2 our spot on the beach & continued with our games hehe. The game was relay hehe. This was really2 fun. We were asked 2 tie our hands, hold a spoon with a pingpong ball with our teeth & go 2 the 1st stn, put the pingpong ball in the tray full of flour & blow the ball out then we were asked 2 run 2 the middle b4 stn 2 look dwn & spin 5 rounds then eat a fruit @stn 2 & come bck.Aww Man!! It's was war seh!! Evry1's face was white with flour except 4 me, Zaki & Epul. Hehe what can i say we're skillfull ah Wakaka!! Eddy & Sharir were taking flour & throwing @ each other haha. Lepak sak korang!!
Captain's ball!!! My fav!!! But this time it's in the water WooHoo!! The 3 grps were combined into 2 grps. 1st grp consists of Mahen, Pika, Fir, Hari, Zaki, Ram & Singh. 2nd Grp consitsts of Me, Azhar, Azmi, Ad, Eddy, Sharir & Epul. We were really close in this 1 & everybody was shocked @ Eddy's performance on that game. Yeah!! Way 2 go Eddy!! Our Star player!! I was the Goal keeper Hehe. Fir really put up a fight & if my team did what i told them, we could have won that game but we lost by 1 goal. But that was the best game of captain's ball ever!!! Gerek ah beb!!! We then went 2 our spot on the beach & rest while Ram, Singh & Hari went 2 buy our dinner. I took out my cam & view my pics of tdy & my prev days...rindu sak...but was interrrupted again by my ex calling...WTH!! Sign i'm nt mad @ her...u guys noe me ah...won't get mad 1...but seriously...she said she was srry 4 ruining my date...i said huh? ruin? no lah...sebok ade ah... I noe hw she feels abt me...i knew dat frm the moment she asked me out all those yrs bck...but it's ur fault we broke up in the 1st place...u cheated on me girl! I told u...ur nt my type but i'll give it a try anyways cos u seemed so serious but u blew it. 2 me friendship can turn into love...ntg is impossible @ that tme but nw it is. I don't trust u...hw am i suppose 2 have a serious relationship with some1 i dun trust. Ur 1 of my close friends nw...is'nt dat gd enuf? I will nt say any further...when i put dwn the phone, all i can think abt is u noe who...then my sec skool fren Kal called me & asked me what i juz said 2 Shida...Like wth?! What i juz said?! I shud be asking u that!! Like hw did she noe abt my blog? Hw did she noe i was in Sentosa? Hw did she noe dat i was single again?! Ahh...damn i was pissed...Seriously...stop telling her stuff dat will give her false hope lah...i dun wanna make her cry again... What's wrong with u man?! Why r u guys trying so hard 2 get us bck tgr?! 1st it was the chalet then nw this...i'm getting sick of it...can't we juz go out & have fun like we used 2 when me & Sha were tgr? I hang up on him after a few mins...then i went 2 the toilet 4 a nice long bath...but then Fir & the guys went in & he said somthing dat made me so damn mad!! Like WTH!! I noe u were fooling ard Fir but Seriously!! Dat was'nt funny man!! Ur 1 of my closest fren?! I tot u noe me better 2 nt 2 say something like dat?! Y r u ppl testing my patience...Seriously if u guys noe who i was 5 yr ago u would'nt even dare come near me...damn it!! I was pissed!! But i kept it all inside while they laughed & said it was all a joke...Yah well it's all a fun & games untill some1 gets hurt & friendships ruined... But i'v changed...thank Allah i'v changed...In the past i would have give it 2 him on the spot without even hesitating & leave him in a bloody mess that's who i was b4...i hated myself & thx 2 Sha...i changed & i'll nvr become dat person ever again nvr...dat was 1 of her wish & i won't break dat promise...a past full of blood & fights...I tot abt this when i sat @ the bus stop @ palawan beach while wearing my socks & shoe listening 2 my mp3... U guys kept telling me...Mirza somtimes u have 2 be fierce a little...Seriously!! U guys have no idea what i went thru...i will no longer have anger in my dictionary...no way...i'm soo scared 2 even get angry...scared i might SNAP!... K it was already 8+ & the food's nt here yet?! Where r they? I wondered...i went 2 take some pics & lie dwn on the matt 2 get some sleep...but then Mahen called me. He asked me if there r other food other than cup noodles here. So i went 2 look & ask around then Ram said 2 let him talk 2 Mahen...I dun noe the full story...i think they wanted 2 play a prank saying that there were no more food & said that they ony bot porridge... I think Mahen was pissed...Mahen is like me...he seldom gets angry but seriously why r u guys testing our patience?! What's wrong with u ppl?! We were all starving here & u go & make a prank like dat?! Memang nk kena!!But luckily Mahen kept his cool & came bck with ice for our drinks...we all packed our things & went 2 the benches. We sat dwn, turn on the music & ate Chicken Rice. The chicken rice was sedap ah. Plenty of rice & chicken but i dun noe y my chicken fin so fast hehe. After dinner, we went 2 Siloso Beach 4 our night activities. The 1st activity is Dog & Bone. I hate this game!! I always loose...guess i need more practice plus i was up against Singh...have u seen this guy? he's huge?! More body mass means more power & more ground covered so i did'nt manage u get past him...oh well it ok. But my team won again yeah! The nxt game was fun. We were all blindfolded & were given a group sound. Grp 1 was Snake, Grp 2 was Frog & Grp 3 was Monkey. We were seperated 1 by 1 & were asked 2 find each other using our animal calls. But seriously we shud have gotten a better blindfold ah. This game was fun hehe. My grp won the 1st round & gt 2nd on the nxt round Yeah!! Way 2 go grp 3!! The nxt game was HISTORICAl!!! Nvr b4 have this game fluctuated 2 dat magnitude Wakaka!! If fir were 2 read this he'll say Oii!! MiRzA ENGLISH please!! Wakaka!! It was a game of TELEMATCH!! Where we had 2 use whats on us 2 make the longest line & the grp with the longest line wins. The prob is that we all we barefooted & had so little on hehe. I won't go into the details of what happened Wakaka!! Strictly for A.W.A members ony. Lets juz say it was unespected lah!! OMG!! CRAZY ASSES!! LOL!! Once again grp 3 won that game Yeah Man!!! Our grp had come a long way!! Frm being the constant loosers 2 repeated winners WooHoo!! K now it's time 4 the last game & guess what time it is when we started with our last game? It was oredy 1+am in the mng. But none of us were backing out even tough we were all so damn tired. We were asked 2 do our cheer, dress up, do a catwalk followed by a dance routine. I was like OMG!! Me?! Dance?! AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN MAN!! But Ad made us practise & we gt better plus we gt Eddy in our grp. He loves 2 dance Wakaka!! Baik ah Eddy!! Ad was a natural & Azhar was doing gd 2 but Azmi wa very2 shy & juz stand there hehe. It's ok ah dude i understand man. I was shy 2 but i was the leader so aku buat muka Cement je lah!!LoL!! After hrs or training? We went to 7/11 to get refreshments 4 the whole grp i kept thinking abt u noe who so i made a msg & send it 2 her but no reply...of cos ah it was 1+am in the mng..what was i thinking lol. We finally started with the last game. When grp 1 went, it was cool, they did a Chris Brown - With u music vid hehe & Soldier Boy - Crank Dat. Youuuuuuuuu!!! Dat was Cool Fir!! **WOOTS** Kudos 2 Pika & the rest of the members 2 hehe. Then it was grp 2's turn 2 perform. OMG!! This was so damn funny sak!!! I was laughing all the way. Ram looked like a real protitute sak OMG!! R those things really fake!! Eeeeeee!! I dunno hw 2 discribe their act lah hehe. Speechless hehe. But u guys did a great job!! Finally it was our turn...i was so freaking nervous...Pika shouted!! Wahh Mimir joget sak!! OMG!! Tell me abt it!! The song started & we danced! Gerek pe!! It was fun & we invited The rest of the guys 2 join in as well. We did a Flow Rida's - Low. It was COOL!! I can't belief i danced if front of so many ppl. Thx Ad for the training & Thx A.W.A for the support hehe. Ok our A.W.A outing was officially over @ 4:45am in the mng. But we still had 1 more thing 2 do...Hari still have 2 do a forfeit 4 coming soo late. But it was 2 be kept silent until the last min hehe. So we all sat in a big circle & had our debrief. We all said our thx & said out what was on our mind @ that time. It was a successful event & i thank Ad 4 giving it her all as the mc. Then it was time 4 Hari's forfeit hehe. He had 2 do a forfeit 4 every member of our group hehe. Gerek ah!! He had 2 do so many forfeits hehe.But i gave him a simple 1 hehe. He said he likes push ups so i asked him 2 do 15 Spider push up 4 me. Easy Cheesy. But the hardest forfeit was 2 make Fir laugh wakaka!! Fir was like really gd @ nt laughing...But when Hari was'nt looking he was like Wakakaka!! & his face was all red frm trying so hard wakaka. Hari finally gave up & we all seperated... some went 2 bed , some ate & some went to 7/11 to get more drinks but i was so tired so i slept. Time check 5:55am. I woke up @ 7:40am, bathe & after waiting 4 the rest of the guys, we took lots of pics of the club & took a bus 2 Harbour Front. We took our final pics of the whole grp & said our gdbyes. Mahen, Hari & Ram went 2 eat & the Harbour Front Int coffee shop while the rest went 2 Vivo banquet 2 eat. I ate chicken cutlet noodles. While we were eating Sharir dared Eddy 2 eat his veggies cos he noes hw much Eddy hates Veggies. He said that if he can eat it without spitting it out then he'll treat Eddy 2 a Movie hehe. Eddy spat it out ah but he fin up the whole veggie patch. Nice wrk Eddy but nxt time chew b4 u swallow ah LOL. Ed drop by 2 say hello & then he was off 2 c his bro i think. Then we went 2 check the price of the tickets 2 Batam cos we tot of gg there for the holidays 2 shop. But i'm nt gg 2 Batam due 2 some reason. I dun mind really. Pika & the rest went 2 check while Eddy, Zaki & I waited. They came bck complaining hw ex the cost has rose & was'nt sure if they wanna go onot. Then i said my gdbyes 2 the grp...they wanted 2 chill in Vivo till 2pm but i was 2 tired & my whole body's acheing...so srry guys...mayb nxt time k. I took bus no 30 & slept all the way hm. Then took a nice long bath & slept again...tired sak. I woke up early tdy juz 2 write this post hehe. I started @ 9am & nw it's 12nn hehe. But i like 2 write hehe. It's my passion. I'll b relaxng @ hm tdy spending time with my family. Thx 4 reading & Tc Labels: Will look forward 2 more fun and memorable days ahead Wednesday, March 19, 2008      Okay!! I can't wake up tdy...my whole body was aching...i had 2 roll over slowly & carefull get off my bed...it's normal...cos i went 2 the gym the day b4. Then i realised!! OMG!! Tdy's the BIG day!! I still can't belief it!!Me & Sabby on a date?! Am i dreaming?! Some1 pinch me!! I quickly took out my new Quicksilver shirt 2 iron 4 my big day. I went on9, chat wif a few friends & ate breakfast. Then i received a msg frm Sabby saying that Linda could'nt come 4 the outing dat we have waited so long for...Sad pe...she said that she had family matters 2 attend to...well this things happen...I called Sabby & asked what 2 do nw & she asked me 2 msg d guys 2 go on9 so we can discuss on what we will do, nw that Linda can't make it. I can tell by her voice dat she was sad...of cos ah who would'nt b rite? Seriously!! We did plan this tgr & we were soooo EXCITED!! But then 1 of us can't make it...hw would u feel if this happens 2 ya... We all went on9 & discussed on where 2 go. But evry1 was like: Anything ah...anything ah...frankly i was kinda upset...cos it sounded like evry1 was'nt interested in gg anymore...kinda ony. After discussing with the guys , we finally agree 2 meet @ Lucky Plaza @ 2pm to play pool, shopping & take lots of pics. I went 2 meet up with Fir as usual but this time it was raining...took bus no 143 to JE MRT 2 meet up with Wan there & off we go!! We reached there quite early & the girls hav'nt reach yet so we went up 1st 2 check out the place. Oooh if u guys were wondering y i did'nt fetch Sabby & go tgr was becos she did'nt want me 2 so dun ask k. If she dos'nt want then i'll respect that. This things takes time. We took the elevator up & we decided 2 play some arcade 1st to pass the time. We played Daytona ( I gt 1st place) WooHoo!! & then Fir tried the fishing game. He caught a "SUPER BIG" fish!! Bayeeek Pe! But did'nt so well on the 2nd round hehe. Then Fir & Wan gt hungry so we went 2 Mac 2 eat something b4 the girls come. I called Sabby saying that we were on the 6th floor but was laughing till i fgt 2 tell her dat we went dwn 2 Mac....Poor Sabby went up & found no1 there. Srry ya...really srry. She meet up with us @ Mac we immidiately took a couple of pics. OMG!! My 1st pic with Sabby!! Somebody pinch me!! My heart was beating so fast!! Then Fir & Wan purposely went out & leave me & Sabby alone. OMG!! Please come bck!! I was so nervous!! But we chat like nrm & Sabby took some pics with my cam. She's very good @ photography. Fir & Wan came bck after a few mns ltr. Hehe thx ah guyz!! Dyla finally came & we went straight 2 play pool. I sucked @ this game but Fir, Wan , Dyla & Sabby was gd @ it. Esp Fir!! AWESOME dude!! I finally learned hw 2 play properly but i still need more training. We played a few games, took a few pics for 1 & a hlf hrs & went 2 Far East plaza 2 eat. I had my usual Kway Teow Goreng hehe but oso had Dyla's wantan...I dunno y i was allergic 2 it...i felt wierd after that. After lunch, we went shopping & the girls were on d roll sak. Hehe. I bot a new ring & gt scolded by Pika when she came 2 join us hehe. I showed Sabby my fav shops there & we went 2 the basement lvl & i saw some really nice ring hehe, i noe i noe...nt another ring?! Haha what can i say i like wearing rings dunno y. But Sabby told me nt 2 buy it, maybe nxt time...hehe cute kan hehe. Ouhky Sabby!! Happy sak aku lol. We took more pics & then we went 2 find a place 2 hang out & rest. After walking 4 quite some time, we finally decided 2 rest @ Starbucks hehe. We were chatting, when suddently...i kept getting msgs frm my ex...like wth!! I'm on a date lah!! Dun u get it!! We can nvr be more than juz friends...i'm getting tired of this...i get headaches frm this moment on...she's so freaking irritating seh... I told her countless times oredy but she still wanna hang on...Ur nt my type lah...Can't we b juz friends...Do u think i like repeating those words 2 ya?! I hate it!! I turned my hp off & drink my Caramell Frappe. We took lots of pics @ Starbucks!! I was sooo happy but then some1 started a topic abt sweet talking...then She said that all guys r the same...All sweet when u dun get the girl but turns sour after u get them...sigh...is that what u think of when i send u all those sweet msgs in the past? I was so sad cos i put my heart out making those msgs...sigh...but a part of me oredy noes this, dats y i dun send u sweet msgs anymore. If ur reading this, i want u 2 noe that i understand ur feeling...i really do...u'v been broken so many times but...U think i'm d same as those guys?! really?! me?! Sigh...i turned all quiet after that...it was really deep. But it's ok. My feeling r still the same & nw i noe ur feelings inside. I'm nt angry...i can nvr be angry @ u. Juz smile & it all goes away. I could'nt concentrate on any of the games...i was worn out...feels like i can pass out any time...my whole body was acheing & my headaches got worst i think it was the wanton, i was allergic to it. Then Dyla said she wanted 2 go home & we walked 2 the nearest MRT stn. I wanted 2 send Sabby home but she said it was too soon. Oky! I'm happy dat she decided 2 take the train even though she had 2 walk so far 2 get 2 her house, i had fun toking 2 her in the MRT. We chat abt music. Then suddently we reached JE MRT stn. OMG!! SO FAST?! I said gd bye but she did'nt look bck...hmm nvm. She returned my msg & i was happy hehe. Then i finally get 2 sit cos we send Pika till Boon Lay MRT stn. Thank GOD!! I was sooo dizzy!! Felt like throwing up. We said our gdbyes 2 Pika & i slept...wah felt so releaved seh. We finally reached JE MRT stn, gt off, said gd bye 2 Wan while me & fir took 143 hm. Fir dropped @ the 7/11 & i dropped @ the reservoir. I gt bck feeling Happy as hell but that statement u said still lingers in my head... I took a couple of panadols after a nice long bath & packed my thing for the A.W.A outing. i cant wait!! K lah thats abt it. If u reading this!! Dun think 2 much k. Every1 has the right 2 say what's on their mind hehe. I'm juz writing what i'm feeling. Klah it's oredy 3am+ & i still hav'nt slept yet...my feeling hav'nt changed & i'm srry if i said anything harsh... Bttm line is i can't belief i went out on a date with Sabby!! OMG!! OMG!! Hehe happy sak aku hehe. K lah gt 2 sleep nw. Thx for reading... Labels: Patience Baby Steps Tuesday, March 18, 2008     Tdy was a very bz day 4 me. Woke up early as usual @ 6:30am, prayed & went 2 pack my thing 4 the day. I went on9 & chat with my sec skool friends. It's been sooo long long since i chat with them seh...but they're bz with wrk & stuff nw so we seldom hang out anymore. We chat for a while utill they had 2 go off 2 wrk. Then when i was abt 2 go off9, Shida went on9...erm...she's my old flame...but she cheated on me but nw were friends. She said srry countless times & asked me 2 give her another chance but srry gal...i won't fall 4 dat again. We chat abt old times as always cos we hav'nt really hang out since last holiday's chalet. I won't fgt dat chalet seh!! My sec skool fren sabo me seh!! They fixed it so that me & her can spend some alone time tgr...like WTH!! I'll get u guys 4 dat!! But seriously...it gives me goosebumbs juz thinking abt it...shall nt mention any futher...lets juz say she trying 2 hard ah...I told her countless times dat i can't love her but...sigh...but i think she's gotten over it nw. Cos she no longer calls anymore...i'm really2 srry. It's really hard 4 me 2 fall 4 some1. Juz becos i think a girl's cute dos'nt mean i love her ok! I'v ony said dat word to 2 ppl in my whole life...dat word is sacred 2 me. Oky! Bck 2 tdy's story. Srry 4 the side track. I met up with Fir, hi's bro & his cuz @ 10:45am @ the usual place & we went 2 JE MRT stn 2 wait 4 Mahen, then we're off 2 the gym. It's been quite some time since i last stepped foot in a gym so i was quite excited. We registered & we're set 2 go. I give it my all tdy but then i remembered dat i hav'nt eaten breakfast...plus i slept @ 3am the prev day. Then after a whole hr & 20 mins of full body wrkout, i felt sooo freaking tired, my legs were like jelly & i gt a slight headache as usual. But i feel really great dat i gt 2 work out tdy!! Hehe. We left the gym @ abt 1:15pm & went straight 2 JP 2 eat our lunch @ the banquet. I had my fav Steak Yum2. There was a misshap while ordering drinks. I odered 2 Ice Lemon-T & Fir said he wanted ice tea. So i gt 4 him ice tea but then he said: Ni sapa punya & i said: Ur's ah...LoL u did say Ice -T lol. He then said i wan Ice Lemon -T & he usually said Ice T 2 the aunty LOL. Lepak pe!!! Then Zaki came & joined us, followed by Hari. I gt freq msgs frm Azhar asking us why we're nt @ Queensway yet cos they're already there & Mahen did say 2 meet there @ 2 & it was oredy 3+pm. Rabak pe.I think Azhar gt fed up & told me that he's gg home...Srry ya bro... We fin eating ard 3:15pm & went 2 Boon Lay MRT stn 2 wait 4 Pika who still hav'nt reach yet...she's always late. Pika finally came after a few mins...i did'nt look @ my watch cos it'll somehow make the time past slower lol. We took the train 2 JE & took a bus 2 Queensway shopping Centre 2 order our A.W.A Polo T-Shirt but the shop was closed & the others sux. Ooh ya! I saw a really nice ring!! But it was $14.50/- sigh & Pika told me nt 2 waste $ so i did'nt. Thx Pika!! Safe $ sikit hehe. I constantly need ppl 2 tell nt 2 waste $ or i'll end up buying evry single thing i like LoL. It was already near 6pm & we still hav'nt visited Farihin who was warded @ NUH for his severe headaches...but he was discharged tdy & so we're visiting him @ his home. Btw Pika took all the cards we made ystdy & a pic of A.W.A & made a big banner like thingy which was sooo sweet of her & i heard she stayed up quiet late doing dat 2. Sweet kan!!. We reached CCK @ ard 6+ & edited the gift, took a few pics with it & went 2 his house, he was using green contact lences sak!! COOL!! But kinda looked like Ezah seh LoL. Okay!! Dat sounds soo wrong!! Wakaka!! We gave him the gift & he went Awwww U Guyzzzz!! Hehe gerek kan kita lol...Anyways...I was really worried abt him...the doc said he gt a blood clod in his brain but did'nt have the proof & i think it's all BULL SHIT!! I hate NUH after what happened 5 ys ago...SERIOUSLY!! dun go to NUH!! I shall nt say any further...I'm jus glad he can still joke around with us...he's my closest fren... It was time for magrib & i went 2 pray @ his bro's room & when i stepped in, i was in AWE!! The whole room was full of Marvel, DC & Other comic action figures!!! COOOOOOL!!! I'm a big fan of Marvel comics & Mortal Combat & his bro gt all the limited edition action figures & nt 2 mention lots of comics in top condition!! I wanted 2 read 1 of his Green Lantern Comic but Fir was rushing 2 twn 2 meet his sis...Awww Mann!! Nvm...juz nt my luck i guess. We all went out & were putting on our shoes when Fir sat on the wooden chair that was juz outside Farihin's house, when suddently PIAK!! The chair broke sak!! OMG!! He broke it sak!! RABAK PE!! Srry Farihin...Pak Tam terlalu berat!! LOL!! After laughing looking @ Fir's pale face when the chair broke LoL we finally said our farewell 2 Farihin & went 2 the bus stop. we said our farewell 2 Mahen & Hari Cos they were waiting 4 their fren there. We took bus no 300 to CCK Int & said Gd Bye 2 Pika who went 2 take her bus hm while me & Fir took the train.Then me & Fir went our seperate way @ JE MRT stn. I took my usual bus 51 hm & fell asleep in the bus & when i woke up, guess who i saw sitting infront of me? It was my DAD hehe, he did'nt see me sak. Finally gt home with Daddy & after a nice long bath, i went on9 & writing this post nw wakaka. Ok!! That's all folks!! I'm chatting with the guys nw as usual hehe. Thx 4 reading & Tc BTW!! TMRW'S THE BIG DAY!! I HOPE EVRYTHING TURNS OUT OK!! Labels: Get Well Soon Bro Monday, March 17, 2008 Tdy was quite hectic...went 2 skool 2 finish up special project tdy... met John in the bus, he looked very tired so i ony said hi when we arrived @ our stop. Talked with him all the way 2 the canteen & said gd bye...hope it's nt the last time though. Then meet up with my grp...Edwin was late again & Ah Soon's (Useless so far) was nowhere in sight. After the usual delay frm my teacher we finally get 2 start our wrk. I turned on mp3 & plugged it into my speaker & we started our wrk. Then after a few mins ltr Edwin finally came by guess what?! He fgt 2 bring the tumbdrive!! Thx ah eh!! Then he went bck after eating breakfast 2 get his tumbdrive. I gt bck frm the canteen after breakfast with Edwin & noticed that the guys were gone. Was told that they went 2 the toilet. After a few mins, they come bck looking happy as hell. I said apa sak senyum2?! If u c Azhar & Saiful senyum2 after gg out, it can ony mean 1 thing...they saw AK!! LOL!! Lepak ah korang!! After that, the atmosphere in the project rm gt crazy lol. Can't stop laughing! Wakaka! We kept on laughing till we've gt no mood 2 wrk lol. Wakaka!! Dat guy sampai buat portrait sak!! EMO habis!! ROFL!! Me & the guys then made our way 2 JE. I had A.W.A meeting while the guys had a checkup. Discussed abt the activites we're gonna have this Thurs. Everything was serious till Fir started his jokes & we all laughed like hell!! wakaka...but then singh came & all hell brake loose!! Mahen told us last min than we could bring outsider for this activity...I was happy cos i can bring Sabby, Linda & Dyla...but deep inside i oredy noe they're nt gg 2 b free cos it's so last min...thx ah eh Mahen...sigh Btw...Zero could'nt make it cos he's been hospitalised...sigh. After the meeting we all decided 2 go eat @ IMM cos Pika wanted rice as usual hehe. We Came, We Ate, We Took Lots & Lots of pics!! I was AWESOME!! I saw another side of Ad juz nw. She was really2 hyper seh!! I always tot of her as the serious no bullshit type lol. Guess i was wrong hehe. I can see she tried her best 2 organise A.W.A's 1st outing. Thx Ad! I hope everything will turn out ok. We then went shopping for Thur's supplies. Singh & Ram went crazy in Giant supermarket. Saboing each other by putting unwanted things in each other's basket...Like SERIOUSLY!!! Hw old r u guys!!! Ouhky!! After buying all the stuffs, we Rendezvous with the guys @ the garden but when we reach there, everybody was making get well soon cards 2 Zero. Awww Sweet kan korang!! True friends indeed ya. But who's idea was it eh? After finishing up on the cards & money issues, we went 2 get ice cream & was otw out of IMM went i bumped into Si Rui & Ken Shin!! I hav'nt seen them ever since Shrek's B'Day which was soooooooo long ago. I wish them all the best & asked her 2 pass my farewell msg 2 the rest of BLAZE1 camp guys. We then walked 2 the interchange & said our gd byes. It was fun spending time with u guys!! There were nvr silent moments, laugh frm start till the end LoL. I really enjoy myself whenever i'm with u guys hehe. I gt home & msged Sabby abt the A.W.A outing but sadly she was'nt free...then i called Linda & told her abt the outing but she nt free either so i asked her 2 pass Dyla the msg but no reply till nw, so i presume she's nt free either. Wanted 2 call u but ur dead tired...srry ya if i disturbed u juz nw... Hmm it's 2am & i'm still chatting with A.W.A in msn wakaka, Bayeeek pe korang hehe. K lah i'm missing all the kecohness. I got 2 get bck into the conversation hehe. OMG!!! I juz noticed i missed a whole segment of Mystery Jam 12 sak!! Damn!! Nvm there's still tmrw hehe. K thx 4 reading guys. Gd mng!!! Labels: Laughed Till Tears = LTT Saturday, March 15, 2008  I'v been thinking alot abt my life in Dover ITE & hw dif my life would have been if that accident did'nt happen 5 yrs ago... I would most probably b married by nw, well i did proposed 2 her & she did say yes & i still have her ring. But if Allah were 2 give me a choice 2 go bck 2 the past & change what happen or 2 stay, i'll most probably stay but nt b4 saving her life 1st...she means alot 2 me but i met some1 who means more 2 me than any1 b4, she saved me from solitude, brought dwn d walls i made, made me love again, she makes me happy & even if this person dos'nt feel the same way, my feelings won't change & all i want rite nw is 4 her 2 b happy even if it's nt with me... Another reason y i dun wanna go bck 2 the past is because of all the gd friends i made thus far...I'm gratefull 2 all u guys 4 beign my friend & i had lots of fun with u guys for example M'sia trip, OAC camp, BBQ's, Study groups in the library, Shopping, Throwing water bombs, Hari Raya, BLAZE camp & the list goes on & will continue 2 grow... Like seriously, in the past i'v ony remembered 3 dates which is 10 Sept, 24th Dec & 25th Dec...but nw the list has grown & will continue 2 grow. I'v nvr been so happy b4 in my life nor have i ever had so must fun living it before Dover ITE. I'll always remember evry single 1 of u guyz & i thank Allah 4 bringing us tgr...I hope that we'll stay in touch & always find the time 2 hang out juz like many times b4. I'm sure the people who noe me 5 yrs ago would'nt want me 2 change either rite cuzzies? Hehe. I'm better off this way. I like who i see in the mirror nw. Plus i look cooler nw rite cuzzies? Hehe. It's all thx 2 dat special person i met in BLAZE camp. If ur reading this, i want u 2 noe that i meant every word. U changed me, made me rethink my life & i'm forever gratefull. My days in Dover will b over after nxt week...ya nxt week cos i still have 2 go bck there 2 fin my special project. I hope i made as much impact as u guyz have did 2 my life...Remember me always cos i'll remember evry single 1 of u guys & for those u did'nt manage 2 make an impact...i'm really srry cos ur name will most probably b forgotten in a few yrs time but i'll most definately remember ur faces, is dat gd enuf? take it or leave it lol. Juz kidding lah. Here r the guys who made an impact: BLAZE , ME1B, ME2N, OAC & Cuzzies. Thank You all. I did'nt mention any names cos it's sensitive but if u guys want me 2, then i'll thank u guyz in person. Cos i meant evry word i say. Tc & Smile always! Evry 1 of ya! Ouhky!! That's dat!! Thx 4 reading!! GENESIS out!! Labels: Thx 4 changing me Friday, March 14, 2008 Yeah!! Finally my blog is finally created!! Thx 2 my cuz Molly & Pika!! Thx girls!! Sweet kan dorang hehe. It really means alot 2 me...TyTyTy!! Ouhky!! Lets get started!! The day started off quite slow actually...the weather was really cooling & comfy...my body refused 2 wake up...my mom tried 2 wake me up for for like 5 times, then finally she gt fed up & pulled my leg off the bed & guess wat?! it worked LoL. Then after solat Suboh i went straight on9 hehe. I was surprised 2 c some of my friends on9 @ dat hr but their status were all bz so i did'nt wanna disturb...so typical of me...then cuz gt on9 & asked me abt tdy's plan...the original plan was 2 met @ JP after my Fri prayers 2 grab a caramell frappe then go straight 2 her place 2 start making my blog but we made a detour hehe. Cuz wanted 2 get her t shirt @ JP interchange but sadly d shop's no longer there...sad seh. Then we headed over 2 Jp banquet cos cuz wanted 2 get some fruits. We were looking @ the fruits when i suddnetly saw some1 waving @ us. It was My aunt (Wak Som) & Sis Nureen. They juz arrived there 2 & asked us 2 join them but i was already full frm breakfast...i had 2 chicken rice btw...it was yummy!! Worth it for $2.50/- seh. After lunch cuz & i decided 2 go off 1st cos it was already 5+ @ we're still @ JP. We took the usual bus 2 cuz's place & was greeted by sweet smelling Sis Shasha. Aru mandi agaknye LoL. Then we went straight 2 cuz's rm & started finding d blog skin. Cuz made me some toasts which was yummy btw. We found some really cool skins & it was very hard 2 choose hehe. After carefull consideration we finally chose this 1 hehe then cuz got rite on customising it...she was really fast but i have no idea what she's doing lol. MiRzA's slow with computer as usual...ntg new lol. We encouter some major prob & was forced 2 stop cos we need 2 go straight 2 Aunt's(Bik Mimi) house 2 get some documents. We went there in my Aunc's car...my Aunt's(Bik Mimi) was having heartaches...sigh i hope she'll recover soon...i makes me sad seeing my loved 1's this way...I'll pray 4 her fast recovery. My Aunc then send me bck hm in his car. Had fun chatting with cuz along the way, we nvr stop chatting do we cuz? hehe Then when i reached hm, the 1st thing dat's on my mind is u noe who hehe. I shall nt mention her name until i get her approval hehe. We msged 4 quite some time & i meant evry word i say. I miss u so much...can't wait for Wed 2 come...She wanted 2 watch tv so i dun wanna disturb. Then Cuz went on9 & told me dat she dun have any idea hw 2 solve d probs in my blog...I asked Pika 2 help & she solved it in like less than 1o mins WOW!! Thx again Girls!!! K that's my whole day's story...srry if it's 2 long...but this is the way i used 2 write in my diary but dat was a long2 time ago...Bottom line is i had lots of fun tdy!! OMG!! It's nearly 2 am...hope i'll get 2 chat with her tmrw...It's time 2 sleep hehe... Oyasemi!!!! (means gd nite in Jap) Labels: My 1st Day Blogging |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
