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Sunday, March 23, 2008
Woke up tdy feeling empty...somthing's missing...looked up @ the clock...hear the seconds ticking away...sigh...something's missing...what's this heavy feeling? The weekends has been very boring...all spent by playing my PSP. Games just dun have the same effect on me anymore... In the past, i can spend the whole day in my room playing my PS without even eating...Then when i finally look @ the clock, it'll already b night time...i was a gamer & a really gd 1 @ dat...won lots of tournaments & dat'll b my pocket $. She asked me 2 change & i did...try 2 play less games & go out more she said...If ony she can c me nw hehe. This is what i do when i gt ntg 2 do @ hm...i'll lie on my bed & have my flash backs...i need 2 go out...i hate staying @ home...but everytime i say i'm gg out, my mom will say: Stay rumah lah...dah lama abg tk stay rumah...mama & papa miss abg tau...then my mom will ask that question: Abg sayang mama tk...mom always ask me that but i always answer with maybe or dunno... That word is sacred 2 me...i'v ony said that word to 2 ppl in my life & if u hear me say it then i really2 mean it...even if i dun show it. But it dos'nt mean that i dun care abt the other ppl in my life. Dun get me wrong! I got lots of close friends & family whom i care abt. It's juz dat i have my own believes/philosophy. But wanting 2 say that 2 some1 but scared they'll freak is another matter. Do u ever get that strong feeling 2 tell that person juz hw much u love them, that u'll do anything 4 them but u can't cos ur scared that he/she dos'nt feel the same way or they'll freak & shut you out. I'm sure u guyz have riiite? Feels heavy inside...feels like u just wanna lie on the bed & wither away...sigh. Boo2 called me ystdy. In case u guyz r wondering who's Boo2? Well...he's my Best Friend frm NS. He asked if i wanna go out with my NS buddies 2 play soccer but i was tired frm the A.W.A outing & i told him that i juz wanna stay home & rest 4 the day. Srry ya Bro! I'm juz nt in the mood. He always asks me out 2 hang out & play LAN games but i'll decline 70% of the time. What can i say bro?! Ur timing sux! But when it dos'nt, we'll have a BLAST playing LAN games either with the guyz or even if it's juz us. Thx Bro! U always blanja me & i'll nvr fgt dat! I'll blanja u some day k! I promise! I was sooo bored...even when Sabby went on9 & chat but ony 4 a short while. Then i remembered something! I'v been wanting 2 watch Heroes on9 4 sooo long but juz did'nt have the time. I ended up watching the whole of Season 1 & a few eps frm Season 2! Woohoo! AWESOME show!! I then msged Fir on9 & asked if he wants 2 go 2 the gym tmrw. But he was'nt sure abt it cos he'll b gg 2 school with Mahen 2 get something. I really hope we can go 2 the gym tmrw...i need 2 keep me mind off things & staying home is'nt helping @ all. K lah i'm gonna end my post here...ntg exciting happened tdy...Booooring!! Thx 4 reading & Take Care Labels: Feels Empty Inside |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
