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Thursday, April 24, 2008
I'll no longer be free starting frm nxt week...i'll be bz with my projects, online math & test. But thx 2 my classmates, my cuz Dee & her fren Fiqah, for making skool life fun. But i'm missing some1 badly & the effects r starting to show...can't concentrate...slowly loosing my drive...i guess it can't be helped...sigh...DEJAVU...again... Sadness is starting 2 show on my face...evry1 keeps asking me if i'm ok...izzit dat obvious? Do i look dat sad... There's ntg any1 can do to help...so why bother asking...i'm too stubborn 2 listen. I'm the type of guy who always gives way 2 the 1's i care for. Thats the dif between me & him...he always forces u to do the stuff that u dun want to, resulting in ur change but as for me...I dun like 2 see the 1 i care for, suffer cos of what i want...so pls smile & be happy...it's been so long since i heard u laugh...i miss the times we spent on MSN, sharing songs & laughing...i'll nvr fgt it & i enjoyed evry min...but it seems that's no matter what i do...i always come up short...I'M NO LONGER HAPPY... I went bck to Dover ITE juz nw 2 pass a book 2 Mdm Patemah. She ordered it frm me last week but due 2 unforseen circumstances, i could ony pass it 2 her tdy. I was'nt myself tdy...i reached Dover @ ard 11+am & i did'nt even notice Ak & Sabby who was standing so close while staring @ me. It's gd to see u guyz again. But y were u guys looking @ me like dat? What's with dat look? Meeting for the whole day...sigh. I then went into rm 42-05 & handed over the book 2 Mdm Patemah & chat with her for a while before heading over 2 the canteen 2 met up with Latiff & the OAC gang. We exchange PSP games while i asked him abt tmrw's 2D1N camp. I'm nt sure if i'll be gg actually. I hav'nt go for a haircut yet & it looks so messy. I hate my curly hair but i juz dun have the time 2 go for a haircut. Maybe i'll try 2 put that it in my schedule tmrw cos i'll look silly if i go for that camp tmrw without having a haircut 1st. I feel like staying bck 2 fin my math online @ NP but Afiq said that he's stay bck with me on Mon to fin our math online. Thx man!! really appreaciate it!! I HATE MATH!!! But it's compulsary 2 fin the on9 math. I gt test nxt week too which i hav'nt even studied for...nt 2 mention the COMT project on Runaway Youths. So much to do in such a short time...i hope i can fin it...but in the condition i am rite nw...i'll most probably won't... I'm nt perfect ya noe...my strength comes frm my loved 1's & lately they're all so damn busy...evry single 1 of em...so i'm running out of juice... But something unexpected happened tdy!! Ed was in skool with Holms(Hong Jie)!! They nvr fail to make me laugh!! We chat during lunch time all the way till 1:30pm then we decided to go to SP...it was my idea...shocking but true...i always get dizzy whenever i entered that place...WOKAY!! I'm nt gonna go into that story... We took 74 to SP & bumped into Epul the moment we gt off the bus. He was late for class so he had to rush. I went to top up my ez-link then i ate my lunch @ SP's Mc, which is so disgustingly filthy!! Juz the place lah...the food's fine...it's so warm seh...no aircon & they're short of cleaning staff. I ate while laughing my heart out thx to the guyz. Wakakaka!! I hav'nt laughed like that since the OAC outing seh... Then we headed 2 canteen 5 & saw Azmi while we were chatting. He looked so dwn & out...he was having a bad day @ wrk. Sad seh...nvr seen him like dat b4. But he's always so calm & collected. All this years dat i'v known him, i'v nvr seen him get angry b4 seh. We said hi & chat a while then he went off for a delivery. Then after a few more jokes & laughs, we went 2 the nearby coffeeshop cos the guyz were dying for a smoke then we met up with Fir & Epul @ the bus stop for a chat & Holms met his fren frm SP & the 1st thing she said was: Ehhhhh ar'nt u in ITE?!! What are doing in SP?!! It was so freaking loud & so freaking hilarious!!! ITE FACE!!! Wakakaka!! Epul looked kinda cool with the Marine Engineering suit on. LoL if things turned out dif, i would be in the same course as he is nw but i guess my love 1's r more important to me. They always comes 1st in my book. So here i am nw in Aerospace & i did'nt get in by luck OKAY!! My gpa is 3.884 & the cut off point for the course is 3.6 so dun give me that crap abt me getting lucky. I'm sick of it...I gt this far cos i worked like hell!!! I ain't no slacker!!! Sure i suck @ math but i'm pretty gd @ evrything else. We went our seperate ways after that. Ed headed to work, Holms went bck home & Epul still gt skool till 5pm so that leaves ony me & my bro Fir. We headed 2 JE & he bot burger ramli then we went 2 the ice skating ring @ Jurong Entertainment centre.... The last time i went in there was for my 1st date with Sha...it was so long ago...10 yrs ago to be exact. I nvr step into that place again till tdy...that place feels so soothing & so peacefull even though music was playing & so many ppl were skating...it somehw felt so peacefull...i dunno why. Memories...it seems like the whole of S'pore if full of my memories...maybe the best thing 2 do is to leave...nw i noe hw ur feeling bro... The scars of the past will stay forever even if we try our hardest nt to remember I wish i can vent my frustration in here but...i noe nw that blogs arn't safe...maybe i should just start a real diary. Jus like it was before...where i'm free to write abt evrything & paste pictures just like the old days...maybe someday i'll get it published. An autobiography of a punk kid life. Haha...yeah rite...stop dreaming. But to have a book published is my dream. Okay bck to reality. We left the ice skating ring @ 4:30pm & went home. I can't belief i visited so many places frm my past without even noticing...it's nt like i planned this. Sure i had plenty of laughs thx 2 the guyz but in the end of the day...ntg changes. Thx for reading...Genesis out. Labels: Frustrated |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
