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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Woke up early in the mng to find out that i fell asleep on the bed & forgotten to turn off the lights & my lappy...OMG!! How did that happen seh? The last thing i remember was listening to Mys Jam 12. There was this caller who called in to tell KC (The DJ) about her encounter with Hantu Tetek!! Yup!! She said Hantu Tetek sak!! Ya Allah!! Mak Cik!! Refrainlah sikit seh!! But noooooo she even discribed hw big those things were...said that it was as big as pillows. OMG!! KC could'nt stop laughing seh!! Who would'nt be...i was listening to it with my bros & my cuzzy in my bros room...we all could'nt stop laughing seh. Then i remember going back to my room cos i was chatting with AK on MSN & i need some privacy...Got a big lecture from her...which i'm very thankfull for. As usual, she always makes me look @ things @ whole new perspective of my problems & it always makes me feel so much better in the end...but i hope i can do the same thing for u seh AK. Hope u'll be back to ur happy self again. Srry eh Ak...we seldom get to talk...then when we finally do...i'll trouble you with my problems...but she always said that it's ok & that she's glad that she can help in any way. Sweet kan dia! Then we said our gd nites @ ard 2am just after Mys Jam 12 ended & everything after that was a blur seh. I remember i was tired but this is ridiculous!! Luckily the fan was facing the laptop seh...if not...sigh. But that did'nt stop my mom from nagging at me...lol. I guess that could'nt be helped...i deserved it. Srry mom. I then got ready to go to school cos we're gonna finish our assignment. I was rushing because i forgotten to pack my things & to iron my clothes so i was kinda in a rush. I managed to get everything ready around 8:45am...which means that i'm still gonna be late...so i called Afiq telling him that i'm gonna take my breakfast 1st before gg so i'm gonna be a little late but then, for some reason, i did'nt have the appetite to eat...dun ask me why. I left home @ ard 9am & reached school 20 mins later. OMG!! I can't belief i was early!! LoL. I went to Our Space but to my surprice, it was closed!! The last time i checked, the notice said that it'll be closed till 13 June. So WTH!! It now states closed till 21st June. DAMN IT!! Well WHATEVER!! So i made my way to canteen 1 & msged Afiq all about it. After finding a gd place to sit, i switched on my laptop & went straight on the assignment but suddently everyone started going online so i gt non stop messages coming in. Then Afiq finally reached!! It was 10am then. LoL. It's ok bro. U have ur reasons. I'm so used to latecomers anyway. Then Pika got online. I asked her if she gg out ltr? But then she said that her school has reopened!! Aww Maaan!! I wined & said that i did'nt even get to hang out with her or the guys. Then she asked if why i did'nt follow their last outing. I was like huh?! When was that seh?! She then told me that Fir msged me on the day of the outing but i did'nt reply him. I dun remember getting any msgs seh!! Sigh...nvm then. Then Pika asked me if i would be intrested in meeting her later after her classes ends. Yay!! I said yes of cos but her classes ends @ ard 4:30 - 5:00pm & she asked me to go home first but i said that i would rather wait cos i'm kinda scared that i would feel lazy to go out agin if i were to go home but after some carefull thinking, i decided to go home anyway. LoL. So i got home & had my lunch & played a few games before i got out again & waited for Pika @ the JE Library. She was late again as usual. LoL. No biggie! I'm used to it. But there was this Indian/Banglar guy sitting beside me who was staring @ Pika seh!! Aku macam nak bagi je!! WTH was his problem anyway!! We then proceeded to the 4th floor but it was full of people so we went down to the 3rd floor & manage to find a little spot near the book shelves. Pika looked so tired...so down & out. We got so much to talk about cos i'm so familiar with the things she's facing now but i just don't know whow to help her...because as usual we tend to think too much...it'll seem as though the problems are so big when in fact, it's actually so simple to solve. You guyz just need to sit down together & talk about your problems. But in my case...i could'nt even do that. My problems are never solved. Never...It'll just fade away...so it'll keep piling up. But i'm glad i could help you any way i can. Ur my best friend Pika & it hurts me to see you like that. Sayang Kau!! We talked about all sorts of things & i tried to cheer her up any way i can. I don't know if it worked though. We left the library around 6:50pm & i wanted to walk her home but she said she's fine. I don't like to force people so i just send her to the MRT station. I reached home @ around 8pm & went straight to my prayers. But then i checked my HP & noticed that i got 3 miss calls. It was Lilly...sigh. I don't know what to do with that matter...i know she like me...i know i need to treat her better...but i think she deserves someone better...cos i'm not exactly ready for any relationship rite now...but she waited for me for a whole year...so i could'nt bring myself to say anything & the reason why i'm writing my feelings in here is because she don't know about my blog. How convenient rite?! Even if she does know about it, i'm still gonna write about it!! Cos it's my blog & i can write anything i want in it. Besides...she already know about my feelings towards her...the reason why i told her is because i don't want her to place any false hopes on me...again. Like i said...she deserves someone better. So i called her back after the miss calls. We talked & somehow everything seemed to settle down to one conclusion. I told her that i'm not ready & i don't want her to wait for me. I know waht you guyz are thinking! I know...i'm an idiot!! But i'm an idiot who cares about other people!! I just don't want her to want for me when i don't even know what i want. I have been through that path before...i just don't want her to go through the same sadness & misery. Just look at my sorry state now!! I'm pathetic!! So ya...just give u on me. After all that...she said that she won't abandon me...especially at this moment when i need someone by my side telling me that i'll be ok. Even if she's just a friend...she hopes that she can make a difference. I felt like i'm gonna burst into tears...it's already filled my eyes...i said sorry...sorry for all the trouble i have caused...then thanks for understanding...then i said that i was tired & that i need some rest...it was already 3am...we hung up & i burst out in tears. The next thing i noe, my mom was nagging @ me! When i looked @ the clock, it was already 5am!! OMG!! I slept & left my laptop & the lights on again!! Awww Maaaan!! Not again!! Everything after that was just NAG!! NAG!! NAG!! NAG!! NAG!! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?! Labels: WHATEVER |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
