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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Tdy's 10 sept... The B'day of my late ex... Usually i'll go to her place for kenduri but they already had the kenduri in advance & her family had a huge family gathering but i did'nt go... guess it'll be awkward if i were to go... but it did'nt mean that i did'nt wanna go ok... i'm quite close to them all. The thing is they really2 want me to let go... even though i kept denying it, they're actually rite... i have to let go... i can't keep gg to her place everytime things dun work out in my current relationship... They're very2 worried about me & i really appreciate it... So i really hope that i can change although i dun wish to forget any of the fun & memorable times we had tgr... but seriously... it has almost been 6 yrs since the accident & i'm alot better then i was before... i'm happy now... I guess they're right when they said that it'll be unfair for my future gf if i kept talking abt my past... as if they're nt good enuf for me... cos i'v nvr been so happy before in my life... yup i'm happier nw than i have ever been before... So i dun want to make any1 feel leftout or think that they're not good enuf for me... cos to me... if u can make me change & make me happy, then ur more than good enuf... cos if u can make me change, that means that ur special to me... ur some1 that i care for dearly... from the bottom of my heart! I dunno hw many times Sha's parents have lectured me on this subjt... but i guess i'm just too stubborn... so ya... i'll stop visiting them. At first i thought that they don't want to see me anymore... but the other day... they cried when i came by cos the last time i visited them was about 1 yr ago... her mom hugged me so tightly that i could'nt breathe... she was crying & kissed me on the cheeks but then she smiled & said this: Did'nt i tell you not to come here anymore... Sigh... hw can some1 be so happy to see me but sad @ the same time... I noe then, that they did it all for my sake... so that i can be free from the past... from that sadness... cos only God noes how many times i'v shed tears... thinking about the past... i guess it has to stop soon... so i spent today with my family & staying home... playing games & chatting in MSN with my friends till my eyes can't take it anymore... I'v promised not to visit them anymore & said that promise to her parents with tears running down our eyes... before eating my fill of her mom's DELICIOUS capati!! I guess that'll be the last time i'll get to eat it... so ya i ate it till i was bloated seh. I hope i can stay true to my promise... Ehm2 said that she dun mind it if i kept visiting my late ex's place... but i guess it won't be fair for her... so this is my final decision... Let go of the past & embrace the future Thx for reading... Labels: Thx 4 loving me |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
