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Monday, December 22, 2008
Alot of complicated stuffs have been happening in our daily lives & may probably be causing alot of sadness & confusion... So i'v decided to write this post about this matter... Ya noe... Some people have juz gone through a rough patch in their life for example a breakup but are probably trying to start anew... Then it juz so happen that some1 else noe about it & that person have been waiting & supporting u in the dark without u ever noeing about it but he/she happens to be some1 ur close to & noe quite well but u decided to take it slow & make him/her wait for u... Making him wait is'nt wrong... i guess... but we usually tend to take things for granted... cos we think that since he/she have been waiting for us since god noes when, then it does'nt hurt to make him/her wait a little bit more... then a few months pass u by & that person decided to give up & leave... then u asked urself what u have done wrong & why things happened the way it did... Srry to say it's ur fault... Cos u don't noe that by making him/her wait, ur actually hurting them more & more with each passing day/month... & even if they decided to wait for u, eventually u'll get a little busy with ur life & they'll feel a sense of beign neglected... cos who can blame them cos u might not take the effort to reassure them... ya u may think that it's a small matter & they should learn to be patient... but have u ever though about the sacrifices they had to take to keep waiting? For example... some other people in their lives may be intrested in them & manipulating them to stop waiting for u cos that person think that they deserve better... How hard & painfull it is to keep telling themselves dat things will be ok & keep resisting the temptation... Guess u never thought of that do u? Ya this things happen quite often & it's kinda normal actually... Cos we tend to neglect the ones that we're close to, cos we expect them to wait for us... but that's where the problem lye... we ask them to wait & be understanding but we're not beign understanding towards their feelings... I guess in this world... sometimes it dos'nt pay to be kind cos kind people are always taken advantage of... Like for example ur very kind & nvr ever get mad & nvr strike ur love ones cos the thought of hurting them hurts u more than they can ever imagine so u juz kept quiet but they usually don't really appreciate it & kept picking on u... That's the way life is guyz... Then the worst part is that those people are always so ignorant... cos they think they're nt in the wrong... Ya noe... I read from somewhere that we're suppose to learn something from every single person we meet in our lives & that every single person have a part to play in our lives & i think it's true... Someway, somehow, we change every single time things happen... for better or for worst, we'll always change... to become a better person or become stronger inside... But hw much can we actually take before we finally breakdown... sometimes juz when we're about to give up, that special some1 that u have longed to see & miss so bad, juz happened to do something so sweet & it can juz changed ur mind to give up... Juz think about it... u told urself that u deserved better & told urself that u wanted to give up & juz when ur about to do it, they do something to make u happy again in an instant... then u fgt all about what u were about to do... -_-" funny rite? But that's what always happen... It's 1:30am rite nw... Juz got bck from the S'pore VS Vietnam match... S'pore lost... My 1st time watching a soccer match @ the National Stadium & the team i supported lost... Oh well... I can't sleep anyway... i hav'nt been able to have much sleep nowadays... so i usually juz stay up till ard 3am+ playing Left 4 Dead... Then when every1's gone to sleep... I'll still be awake... Can't seem to sleep... Juz listen to my MP3 & stare @ blank space... or look @ the ceiling while lying on my bed... listening to my stomach growl cos i hav'nt eaten since morning but i have no appetite to eat... So i might as well get back to my previous topic... I read from 1 of my friend's blog the other day... he declined several offers to watch a certain movie cos he wanted to watch it with his GF but his GF's always said that she's not free & that she's always BZ but then 1 day, he called & found out that his GF was watching that movie @ home cos she bot the VCD... my friend got pissed off lah... of cos... who would'nt be... how can she be so... sigh... when he asked her out for a date, she said that she's bz but she always find the time to go out with her cousin & friends... sux rite?! Dats how it is... but we're supposed to juz be patient & wait... hope & pray dat everything will be back to normal... back to the good days when we whisper sweet words to their ears... We ask ourselves... why do we keep taking this kind of treatment... well... maybe we endure this hardship cos we're insecure deep inside... maybe we're scared that if we were to let go... we might not get another chance... maybe no1 else will come & we'll loose the happiness we have yearned for so long... so we tend to cling to those we already have... but someway, somehow... thinks always go wrong... it always does... no matter how good u treat that person... maybe it's all fated but to me... if we dun fight for the ones we love the most... then what else do we fight for?! So juz suffer in silence... hope & pray that everything will be ok someday... hope for the day... u'll be able to hold her/his hand again... kiss it & tell her/him that u love her/him... hope for the day... he/she will return u the love bck & say the words u longed to hear her say... maybe they still dun noe how they mean to u... maybe they're juz really bz with their daily commitments... so dry those tears & pray... keep on praying cos... that's all we could do if they dun even reply ur msgs... or even worst... reply in such a way that u wished u did'nt msg them in the 1st place... believe me when i say that i noe what u guyz are gg thru... sigh... Good Luck... May Allah answer ur prayers... I dun feel like blogging anymore... Time check... 3:45am... sigh... Thx for reading guyz... Labels: Sleepless Nights |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
