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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Woke up early to meet Ted ystdy @ K.A.P Mac for breakfast & to study for my math exam. That place was nice but they play the most lamest songs seh... We studied till 1pm then i took the bus to Marina Square to study with the guyz but Ted was lazy & went. I reached Marina Square MAC around 2+pm & saw Amirul & Ahmad. We were joined by Hidayat & Rafiq soon after. We did the past math exam papers till 9+pm before going our separate ways. Amirul, Ahmad & I walked to Suntech City before we took different buses. I took bus 61 & alighted @ Doughby Ghaut & walked past Istana Park... I remember this place... The 1st pic i took with Ani was taken here by Pika... It was breath taking... I sat down somewhere nearby to look @ the scenery while reminiscing about dat time here we hung out with OAC... I miss those guyz... I was a mess... I can't even concentrate while studying juz nw... I kept daydreaming... There so much wonderful memories with her... I was really3 happy... maybe the most happiest days of my life... but i guess every thing must come to an end at some point of time & mine was tdy... I wished things could be different... just when my mom told me dat she like her... it's all over... i wondered around senseless for awhile before taking bus 143 home. I lye down on my bed & listened to MJ12 but the next thing i noe it was over... i wasn't paying attention seh... i juz stared @ blank space... talked to Ezah & Ahmad online before gg to sleep. But i could sleep... i juz held the teddy tightly & prayed... prayed so dat everything will be ok... this is so frustrating... why does this things always happen during my exam period... i might actually need to repeat a module... i can't study... i kinda wished i can go into NS again... escape this cruel fate of mine... i tried to think about what i did wrong... i could only think of one incident... yes i was jealous dat day... dat was a major mistake... but i was srry... i understand now... but it's only 1 mistake... but maybe dat was enough to give her a reason to end it all... I kept asking that same question over & over again... so many factors to the problems... but the bottom line was still this... i still love her so deeply... what if i were to say no... ntg would have changed... she would say... up to you... then silence... shut out from her life... so maybe giving up on her was the best thing to do... but i'm nvr good @ saying goodbyes... i was nvr able to let go of my relationships... the feelings & memories nvr goes away... yrs may past but i'll still smile/cry thinking about the past... she said i was her best ex... the best huh... it doesn't change the fact dat i'm an ex to her. People said dat things happen for a reason... riiite... we're all part of a bigger picture... some1 told me dat maybe Allah is testing me... i kinda find dat sick to the core... The fact is dat every tear we shed makes us stronger & ever time w heal from a broken heart, we become colder... lots of people change cos of this... some people couldn't even recover from this... some lost their faith in Allah... some juz gave up on the idea of ever having a relationship again... some even took away their own lives... so became oblivious to the people around them... some people even become crazy... so i ask u guyz... isn't dat sick... but if we do recover, it'll be learning experience... this kinda reminds me of SAW movies... live or die... it's our choice. It's all a game... a game of life... the choices we make & the things we say & do, determines our future... in other words that certain person is our Mr & Ms Right cos we want them to be... when we're in love, we overlook their flaws & eccept them for who they are... at last dats who i am... dats what i do... good & bad, we have to eccept it... support him/her with all ur heart... Some sort lik a loading bar ya noe... hw many percent will it be before we decided dat we dun want this & cancell it... till we decide to give up... i think mine was 70%... before it was all over... at least it feels like 70%... maybe it was lesser... srry if this doesn't make any sense to u reader but i'm just trying to put it in a different perspective. Tmrw's my exam paper & i need to study as much as possible ltr... i'll be meeting the guys @ Centre Point to study... hope i can understand & memorise everything by tdy... I was typing this post & decided to read my best friend's blog but what i read gave me a shock! She had a HEART ATTACK... OMG!! I msged her straight away & asked her if she's ok... Thank Allah she was ok... I was releaved... I'm so glad she's ok... I realised it again... Anything can happen... so we have to appreciate every1 around us & show them how much they mean to us... if anything were to happen, we might nvr get the chance to ever show them. I'm glad ur ok Pika... Sayang Kao sgt2... Pls take ur meds & rest ok... Ya Allah... Please Keep My Love Ones Safe From Harm... Thx for reading guyz... Labels: Alhamdulillah She's Ok |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
