Wednesday, September 23, 2009
I really2 wanted to eat Popeyes cos i nvr tried it b4 so i blanja my 2 besties (Pika & Boo2) Labels: Miss ya guyz oredy Saturday, September 19, 2009 It's dat time of year once again, where people ask for forgiveness & give zakat to the young... A month of celebration after a month of fasting... People smiling, laughing & happiness all around... But how has it been since the last time i was dat way... 9? 10 years ago? All i have now is sorrow... For this is the time of the year dat i lost someone i love most dearly... Someone i love & care more than anyone in this world... Whats there to celebrate?! Why are you all so happy about?! All i remember is death... the scene of my love lying on the operation theater passed on... I went down on my knees crying all those years bck in the hospital... So tell me how can i fgt this tragic day when everyone keep celebrating about it!! Tell me!! All i can do is hide my sorrow behind my fake smiles & laughter... When it feels like too much to bear i'll juz plug in my earpiece & listen to loud music... trying to keep myself tgr... trying not to cry... As visions of the past keeps playing in my mind... But for once... i dun feel alone... for many of my friends are feeling this way... I dun feel like i'm going crazy... Sorrow & guilt can do that to a person... Thankfully i have my best friends to ease the pain... How i wish i can juz stay at home & just play games during Raya... But it's tradition & i have to celebrate it with my family... No use making such a big fuss about it cos they dun understand anyway... So juz go along with the flow & try to have a good time... Dats what i tell myself every year... Everytime we go out to celebrate... Instead of celebrating her death... Why not think of it as like we're celebrating how she lived... At least i can try... Ignorance is my best friend... Labels: always have, always will, I'll always love you Thursday, September 3, 2009 For words I could not comprehend you could say, They stung so subtly yet numbly and grew stronger as I tried to understand the truth, The reality that might or might not happened. For something I could not understand, Yet so compiled to want to understand, I was empty, so violently shaken from the serenity of what I thought we could hold on for eternity. Naive? Maybe so but I’d rather devour into the indulgence of such peace and calmness for as long as I can, To enjoy moments of bliss so embedded in my mind, Heart and soul but, ah! as you saw it coming; so ignorantly; Coming that this bliss too, cannot remain untouched. It had to be shattered by merely of words and the predicament of distasteful happenings, Pushed upon by fear and anxiety. Fear as misunderstood greatly, by many, is your great acquaintance. For it propels you to see things, Your imagination wants you to see and believe,for they are predictions of worst things, Worrisome things, things that are of no control by us. Fear, makes us strong when we think it makes us weak. It hides hope when there’s none left for you to see, But only to feel , when you need it the most. It gives faith and cautiousness to those, who do not seek it but knows to acknowledge its presence and treat it wisely like an old friend who needs a favour. Labels: Unravel The Mysteries We were both young when i first saw you I close my eyes and the flashback start I'm standing there on the balcony in summer air See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello, little did i know That I was Romeo, I was throwing pebbles And your daddy says stay away from Juliet And u were crying on the staircase Begging me please don't go and u said Romeo take me somewhere we can alone I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run U'll be the prince and I'll be princess It's a love story baby just say yes... So I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew' So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while Cause I was Romeo, you were a scarlet letter And your daddy says stay away from Juliet But you were everything to me And you're begging me please don't go & you said Romeo take me somewhere we can alone I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run U'll be the prince and I'll be princess It's a love story baby just say yes. Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel This love is difficult but it's real Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story baby just say yes U got tired of waiting Wondering if i was ever coming around Your faith in me was fading When i met you on the outskirts of town and u said Romeo save me i've been feeling so alone You keep waiting for me but I never come Is this in your head? You don't know what to think Then I knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring And I said marry me Juliet You'll never have to be alone I love you & that's all I really know I talked to your dad, Go pick out a white dress It's a love story baby just say yes Cos we were both young when i first saw you... Labels: It's been year since u left this world but i still love you... Wednesday, September 2, 2009 My bro told me dat he'll be going to JAPAN after Hari Raya with his class... he said that it's part of his course... WTF!! SO NOT FAIR!! It's always been my dream to go to JAPAN... ever since i was 16yrs old... I wanna go there & see Ryoko Chan... I can still remember her face turning red when she's blushing... KAWAIII!!! Hehe. Other than dat, Sha & I picked Japan as our 1st Honeymoon spot... so i'll say this once again... SO NOT FAIR!!! Is there any way i can go too? There must be a way right2? WRONG!! It's impossible lah... Nvm2... I swear dat i'll collect enough money to go there with the guyz in the future. Sigh ive got to cheer up so i planned a reunion with my friends to buka outside this Sunday. Pika & I even made the event known thru Facebook & invited the guyz to join in on the fun. I hope the turnout will be good & even if they ain't coming, 5 ppl have cfm dat they'll be coming on dat day so it isn't all bad. I've got to enjoy the Holidays before the results are released... cos i dun feel good about it. I'll need a MIRACLE to get thru this year... it was dat stressfull... at least for 1 of the paper ah. So i got 2 games to help me enjoy the Holidays cos i was too bz studying for the exams dat i didn't even plan for the Holidays. Then i'll be treating Boo2 to Popeyes nxt week not to mention going to the upcoming IT Fair which is in a few days time. I wanna buy a new MP3 or MP4 player & i hope i'll get a good cheap price for it. Well dats all i got planned so far... i wish i got more planned but sadly i dun. Hmm. This is by far the most slack Holiday i've had in years. Haha. Just staying @ home & listening to malay songs all day while playing games to pass the time cos my mom said dat it helps her in sewing the curtains smoothly & faster. LoL. So those songs gt stuck in my head. We havn't started to make Kuih Raya yet so i can relax for now. Hehe. Okay2 i've changed the blog song oredy... ler. So many complaints... give me a break oredy guyz... I've been having headaches all day tdy... thx to **N**. Seriously... wats the big deal in me keeping pics & putting them in slideshow on my desktop? Why are u making such a big fuss over it... majok lah sana... i dun see anything wrong with it... i juz wanna recall bck those precious memories i had bck then... it makes me happy okay! U want me to be happy right? Maybe it's ur manses acting up or something but seriously!! This is ridiculous **N** so i ain't gonna apologise get it!! Ur not even my GF!! At least not yet... So chill okay!! Grrr... Anyways i should probably sleep... See ya... Labels: I wanna go to JAPAN too can |
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