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Saturday, September 19, 2009
It's dat time of year once again, where people ask for forgiveness & give zakat to the young... A month of celebration after a month of fasting... People smiling, laughing & happiness all around... But how has it been since the last time i was dat way... 9? 10 years ago? All i have now is sorrow... For this is the time of the year dat i lost someone i love most dearly... Someone i love & care more than anyone in this world... Whats there to celebrate?! Why are you all so happy about?! All i remember is death... the scene of my love lying on the operation theater passed on... I went down on my knees crying all those years bck in the hospital... So tell me how can i fgt this tragic day when everyone keep celebrating about it!! Tell me!! All i can do is hide my sorrow behind my fake smiles & laughter... When it feels like too much to bear i'll juz plug in my earpiece & listen to loud music... trying to keep myself tgr... trying not to cry... As visions of the past keeps playing in my mind... But for once... i dun feel alone... for many of my friends are feeling this way... I dun feel like i'm going crazy... Sorrow & guilt can do that to a person... Thankfully i have my best friends to ease the pain... How i wish i can juz stay at home & just play games during Raya... But it's tradition & i have to celebrate it with my family... No use making such a big fuss about it cos they dun understand anyway... So juz go along with the flow & try to have a good time... Dats what i tell myself every year... Everytime we go out to celebrate... Instead of celebrating her death... Why not think of it as like we're celebrating how she lived... At least i can try... Ignorance is my best friend... Labels: always have, always will, I'll always love you |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
