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Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I tot dat we're already past all this... tot that we won't ever bump into each other since u've already moved to ur new place all the way at the other end of the island... guess i tot wrong... cos there u were sitting beside me when i woke up in the bus otw home... seriously... WTH... how can dat even happen? Out of all the friends, exs, family, relatives i noe... ur the only person dat i bump into coincedetially over and over again. Not only dat... ur the only person i endlessly argue with over & over again... like seriously? we havn't met for a really long time & the 1st thing u ask me was if i was bck from a date & who she was... like WTH! FYI! I was accompanying my my classmates look for a cap... we went almost everywhere around town looking for his stuff but to no avail & i was drained... i dun even hard the energy to care that u were sitting nxt to me but u had to start talking... I've said it once twice, three times & now i'll say it again... U are one freaky girl. Okay so we end up talking about our probs & why i gave up on you... but we both noe dat ur not gonna let it end there when we went home... but i guess hoping dat our conversation can end early was juz wishfull thinking... Seriously stop asking me the same question over & over again... Seriously lets pretend we give it another try... lets pretend i gave it my all... even if i did dat... will ur parents accept me? will u stop flirting with ur guy friends? could u erase all the stuff u did in the past? even if dat were to happen, ask urself, are u even capable of change? Ur a flirt... always have been & always will be. I seriously have no feeling toward us already... friendship is impossible... relationship for us is a big joke... maybe this really is a serious joke being played on me by GOD... Why do u put this guilty concience in me... cos every time i see you, i feel a great feeling of pity for you... ur puppy dog eyes & soft spoken questions u asked me juz ridiculously sounds sincere when u asked it... After a full day out with Ahmad i was too tired to retaliate... too tired to even care dat ur actually asking me all those ridiculously straight forward question dat u already noe the answers to. I was actually releaved the moment we alighted the bus but we end up sitting under the block talking & aswering ur questions... at some point... i even fell asleep... u saw it but u kept talking... wats wrong with u? Anyways...my wall were up for a reason & it's slowly gg up again after dat certain some1 brot it down a few weeks ago... FYI! I dun call for a reason... my home phone has low volume for some reason & i dun like talking on the phone with some1 i wanna go serious with cos i dun wanna end up boring her & another reason why i dun call was cos i dun wanna run out of stuff to talk abt the nxt time i go out on a date with dat certain some1... Theres a reason to why i do or do not, do stuff... And as far as being sweet is concerned... it's hard to crack my brain to make poems after i had shut out my feeling for so long... and considering the past... being sweet is really hard for me rite now... ideas juz come and go... i can be dreaming about a really2 sweet event & dates, giving some idea on what to write about but the moment i woke up... poof it's gone... it's hard to open ur heart 200% cos the scars of the past will always restrain you. Besides... one date can hardly be called serious at this point of time rite? Writing serious poems will only scare the person away wat... think about it lah... seriously... but i guess u dunno anything about restraint do ya... once a flirt, always a flirt wat... Stop talking about this girl & dat girl i dated... cos i treat every person differently... i nvr do the same thing to 2 dif people... cos wats the point? Relationships are supposed to be special... so i try to make thigns special... so it's hard cos i went all out when i was dating Ani... we went dating like almost everywhere on the West side... so when i asked dat certain some1 abt where she wanna go to or where she wanna eat, i wasn't surprised when she gave me the same ans i gave when my friends asked me where i wanna take her. LoL I dun mind waiting cos heck i waited for so long oredy & the fact dat she said this " wat makes you think my phoebia is gone" really slows down the pace. Cos i have the same phoebia... i'm trying really2 hard to fight it & she did ask me not to force myself but i dun wanna loose some1 important to me juz cos i was slow to make a move... Ok bck to main topic... bottom line is dat we talked till i totally rested my head on the stone table & sleep b4 she said "ur tired huh?" i was like DUUUUUH!! I'm exhausted... for god sakes, i was falling asleep the whole time u were talking to me... airhead. So i finally got home & pretend it all didn't happen at all & played L4D2 with Sankalp b4 sleeping. I noe i was tired but after bathing with cold water, i kinda felt refreshed & juz wanted to play the new map for L4D2 & it really worked cos i totally fgt the boring chat we had earlier on. My bed nvr felt so good before in my life SERIOUSLY! LoL. I didn't even bother to take my blankets & juz blacked out almost immidiately after lying down. Labels: is friendship possible for us |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
