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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
It's been ages since i last posted anything. Life's been like a rollercoster this few months. I've been going to & from the hospital cos my injuries took a turn for the worst. I lost my eyesight in my right eye just before the exam started & so i told my parents that i'll be staying over @ Afiq's place for a few days to study. That was of cos a big fat lie cos the truth was dat i was admitted to AH for surgery & had to stay there for 2 days. I felt the urge to call or msg my besties but... in the end i didn't even touch my Hp. I guess i juz didn't want them to see me in dat state but one person was constantly appearing in my head. Who else but Sabby... only god noes how much i miss her... but all i could do was juz read bck my past msgs & see some pics of her from my Hp to ease dat need. I was always bz with sch... which is such a pain in the ass juz to survive while she, on the other hand was always bz with work. After a date, i'll msg her to ask for the nxt 1 but sadly our bz schedule always gets in the way till i gave up trying till the nxt few months or so =( . I don't know if dats the real case or she juz want some alone time with her family & friends but i always pray dat she's doing fine & happy. The nurse kept asking me if i have a family & why no1 visited me. She said i looked sad & lonely... so she usually juz sat beside my table & chat with me for a while before she had to continue with her job. Maybe she tot she was helping but it really doesn't help me at all. It's like putting salt on my wounds everytime she asks me those questions. I was discharged from AH on the 3rd day. They removed the eye patch & thank god for dat cos damn... i looked ridiculous with dat on... looked like a retarded pirate with dat eye patch & blue hospital robe. -_-" I went straight to taman Jurong for KFC cos i was craving for it the whole time i was in AH. Hospital food sucks!! I slept the moment i got home & played my PS3 to releave stress as usual. Then a few days later AK, Hudz & Pika msged me on the same day saying that they miss me & asked me where i've been & why i was so quiet all of a sudden. I told all of them abt it & they all seemed sad that i was in dat state. Hudz was even mad dat i didn't tell her... basicly cos i always suffer alone & she hates dat fact... cos i have friends who cares for me. Sigh... I really don't know how to reply to dat. I juz dun want them to see me so sad. Cos i'm always smiling when i'm with them. Then the day after, i got a msg thru MSN from Sabby. She asked if i have a webcam & she requested a Vid call thru MSN. OMG!! I was happy but paniced as i rushed to clean my room & make myself look presentable but sadly i dun look anywhere near presentable... i was a mess after spending time in AH. But damn i was happy to see her again... i juz looked at her & couldn't stop smiling like a retard... she must have tot dat i'm a wierdo but it think she was bz trying to find her lost work data. Yup her antique work desktop suddenly lost all of her work & she had to do it all over again. Sigh juz when i tot we can talk... but at least i get to see her again. I dun think i will say much anyway since i was so awe stuck by her at dat time. So typical of me. Anyways we chat from 1+pm till 5+pm i think before she had to log out & head bck home. I wonder when we'll get to talk again... it's like having a long distance relationship... dats if u can call this a relationship at all but i treasure every minute of it. Always. Soon it was time to start studying for the exams. I tried my best for the 1st 2 papers but it seemed like my best wasn't good enough... those papers were though... SOM (Strength Of Material) & AM (Applied Machenics) were ntg but pure math in materials & objects in motion... Damn... I wish i can pass. So i told myself, since i'm probably gonna do badly for those i might as well gove my final paper 200% of my strength & effort so i stayed over at Afiq's place & studied from 8pm all the way till 6am brfore getting a 1hr rest. Then we went to sch & continue to study all the way till the paper starts @ 2:30pm. I nvr did this before but i was desperate to pass this last paper no matter what it takes. But only god noes how happy i was the moment they let us read the exam papers. I was smiling non stop cos every single thing i studied actually came out & i practically finished the 2hr paper in like less than 10mins. Well all the questions except the calculations part... cos i didn't study dat part... but at least i can guarantee 70% of the marks. I was so releaved & happy dat day. I went home smiling & msged everybody dat encougared me, saying thx for their support but sadly i couldn't sleep dat day... due to the fact that Hari Raya was the day after... Then i realised the date... 10/09/2010 WTH!! It's gonna be Sha's B'day... I can't balieve i didn't notice dat sooner... She passed away during Raya... which was the one & only reason why i dun celebrate it with all my heart so this is ironic to me. Is she telling me to to celebrate it & stop feeling so bad about it? This was the 1st time that Hari Raya fall on the same day as her B'day. So i called her parents & asked them about it. Turns out they're not gonna celebrate the 1st day of Raya to commemorate her but they're gonna have a kenduri instead & sadly i couldn't go since i have to Raya with my family on the 1st day as usual. I kinda got emo the night b4 raya... sigh... can't help it. I even shut out my Bestest best friend Boo2 juz so that i would not think about the situation. I juz wanna try to enjoy raya without feeling sad. I managed to get a few hours of rest & was able to wake up juz in time for Raya prayers. The imam cried after the prayers due to the fact that so many of our neighbours passed away juz before Raya & they were quite close to him but come to think of it, he always cries during Raya prayers. This proves that there a people out there who's more Emo than me during raya =P . Seriously he got lots of guts to cry in front of so many people. WoW. Simply Wow. I feel for him... i really do. But the fact that the speaker is malfunctioning really doesn't help... cos all i could hear was... GAP... "silence"... NGAP... "silence" TUP... "silence" cos the sound keeps turning on & off in short intervals & sucessions. I can't help but to laugh =P (Really sorry of this is offensive) the only reason why i know what he was talking about was cos my dad was sitting right in front of him. Well.. Hari Raya turned out ok so far for this year... my cuzzies managed to make me smile & forget again even if its juz for a little while but i had fun non the less. I havn't count my $ yet... Well ya i still get $ okay... not dat i'm complaining... but it is kinda embaressing so i quickly put it in my bad the moment any1 gave me any duit zakat. Heee. I got kind relatives okay!! I'm really greatfull dat i have a good family background although i dun talk to them much. My uncle rented a van this year & we all visited 5 houses for the 1st day. We as in My family, Ifwat's family & Molly's family. We 3 (relatives) head family have always been close & will be close for years to come =) Well if u come from a huge family like mine, it's easy to stay in close relationships with one another but we're all close non the less. My Mother's side has 11 sibling including her & My Dad's side has 10 including himself... so it's kinda hard to get to noe all of them. Besides i'm the quiet type so it's especially harder for me =/ Well i'm gonna have a briefing about my attachment tmrw @9am in school & i should probably rest early for it but i dun really feel like sleeping for now but i'm gonna end my post here. Till next time... Labels: I wonder what nxt year will be like |
 
Mohamad Syamirza
a.k.a Syam (Erm... apparently almost everyone in my class calls me my this name now... even teachers -_-") MiRzA (Norm for relatives & friends) Mimi (LoL Pika only... so far) ZaZa (Ak only so far =P) I'm 26 25/12/1984 --- Msn Likes: NFL, Cycling, Bowling, Badminton, Outdoor Activiteis, Music, Animes, Movies, Games  New Jeans New Clothes A White Beanie A new MP3 A Big Punching Bag Boxer Gloves A New Set Of Weight A Black Bicycle w/gearsSorry if i leave anyone out :) MJ12 Zi Yee Siti Yuyun Hidayah hAni Ayue Ayue2 A.W.A AfiqNadd Molly Dee Sabby Linda Dyla Yana Fyda BEN Ahmad Amirul Clarissa Pei Yi Pika Fir Khir Jas SrtStf Tunchit Acah Badd Latiff Hafiz Nizar Kamisah Zach Dzhabar Isnady Shawn March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 November 2011 April 2012   Music Playlist at MixPod.com Designer: SiewSuen♥ Basecode:Chili. |
