I always knew this was gonna happen. It's not that i was hoping for it, NO. It's just that i was always worried for her... the thought of her quitting school to help her family has always been the outcome i pictured back when we were together & i told myself, whatever happens in the future, i'll support her 200%. I fell in love with her back then not because of her looks but because of her huge heart. Her sense of responsibility was bigger than other of my friends. Back then, family to me was just another word. I have never needed my parents, i never ask them for anything except to just leave me alone.

Back then, i used to fight with my dad whenever we started talking. Our fists will be flying & my mom will be screaming for us to stop. I worked & studied to support myself since the age of 13. Family was just something i go back to when my day ends everyday. I would just take a bath then go to sleep at the end of everyday. I rarely talk to any of my family members. I studied cos i wanted to not cos my parents wanted me to. Heck, they dun even know where i was 95% of the time.

So i learned a lot from Ani's when we were together. She thought me the true meaning of family values & responsibility. Unlike me, she's very caring towards her 5 siblings & parents. She always have that worried look when her sibling isn't doing well in school and i have always notice the look she gave me whenever i treated her or her family or when i play PSP or any games in front of her siblings. I always get scolded not to do that in front of them but for me, i always think that our future is what we make of it. If we are failing in our lives, there's no one to blame but ourselves so i just didn't listen to her.

But one things for sure, I wanted to help her anyway i can but she didn't like it one bit. In fact, she don't want me to get involved with any of her family problems & the more i tried to help, the farther i got pushed away till the day comes where she finally throws in the towel & lets me go for reasons i'm not sure of.

I was devastated but one things for certain, i still love her & i never wanted anything bad to happen to her. Whatever i said after we broke up was all to help me move on & get stronger. I never intended for her to get hurt. I even help her sister Ayu with her money problems.

I told Ayu the other day that she don't have to pay me back what she owed me & its ok. I never really cared if she paid me back in the 1st place anyway. If i can help then i will but there are some occasion where i was really short of cash due to my medical bills & checkups. I'm not working & my parents don't even know i had 3k+ hospital bills due to my operations & treatments.

When the new finally got out, it'll only be confined to my closest friends. They kept asking me where the heck did i manage to settle it on my own. LoL. It's a secret guys, but still i thank allah for allowing me to recover & blessing me with good luck. I'm eternally greatfull for everything that has happened thus far.

Anyways i'll be praying constantly for Ani to have a happy & stable future ahead of her.

Wish ya all the best princess =)

(Our happy & sad days together will never be forgotten)

(Maafkanlah segala kesalahan ku terhadap mu)