Then i find my friends telling me that maybe she has feelings for me. Oh man, its awkward. I wish she can just tell me how she feel about me cos i dun wanna ruin a perfectly good friendship with my awkward messages & screw ups. I hate the feeling of being in the middle, cos the mind set is really important. It's weird when your going out with somebody & you dunno what that is.

I really dun like this feeling that i'm doing something wrong with every message i sent. Thinking is this appropriate or isn't it. Just the other day a friend of mine suddenly messaged me asking if she could borrow my laptop for the day cos she needs it for a project cos i left it with her the whole day.

I came back around 6pm & met up with her near her place to get my laptop back. I saw her sitting at the bench under her flat & went to greet her. What happened after that made me so confused till today. She asked me why i had so many picture of my ex's & why did i still have them in my laptop.

My first question was, how did she know where my pics were? It's not exactly on my desktop. She must have done some snooping around & found it. My second question was why was it such a big problem to her that i still kept those pictures. So i told her that those pictures are my precious memories & i won't ever delete them. She then gave me an annoyed look, handed over my laptop & stomped off to take the elevator up without even saying goodbye or a simple thanks.

I was like, WTF did i do?! It's not as if she & i were officially dating rite? We have gone out on a few outings with friends. Not once have i gone out with just her alone so i was confused. The she called me ystdy asking why i'm giving her the cold shoulder. Seriously?! Me? Giving her the cold shoulder? I was just behaving as per normal, i dun remember giving anyone any cold shoulders. I though she was the one who's angry with me.

She then apologized & said that she actually wanted to make me a picture montage of us & put it on my desktop as wallpaper but then she couldn't find any picture of her on my laptop & started to take a look around for it but she came across my ex's pics instead & got pissed off.

So she got jealous... wth... So she likes me abit... Why am i always the one not noticing this kinda stuff. Then what should i do now... is this a confession? I'm so confused.

When things get awkward i'll get so nervous over every little things. So not like me at all... i hope i dun screw up anything.

Then there's this other situation i have with one of my Chinese friends from work. We got really close & she was really sweet to come all the way to Bukit Batok to accompany me to my friend's wedding. We out out the day before that too to watch Transformers 3 but what is this? I though she & her boyfriend patched things up. Is this normal? Or is this something more. I'm so used to going out with my bestfriends Pika & Hudz. So i just treat going out with girls as nothing more than friendly outings but somehow this feels different.

I wanna spend as much time with her possible even if my feet's killing me. LoL. Cos i had fun & i'm happy when i'm with her. Just liking her company, jokes & her fun personality. But then as usual, things get awkward when i'm thinking too much replying her messages.

Apparently it's normal to check our handphones every minute to see if u missed a message or a call cos lots of my friends have that problem. Now i have that problem too. LoL. Hope i get to hang out with her again soon.

That is if i dun screw things up first...