I wish i can juz pray & it'll come back but sadly it won't. There are reasons to why i'm this way & it's all bad. If i can have at least one of the things i've lost over the years, maybe juz maybe i'll have my faith back. Sounds like bribery huh? U think so? Well... i know that there are plenty of people out there who feels the same way as i do.

I have learned that if you think that your life is bad, then there's probably someone somewhere out there who's is in way worst condition & facing way tougher problems than you. But can we accept things for what they are or do we fight & find a new purpose in life? WE FIGHT!! Fight till there no more breath in us... only then will we finally give up.

Well thats how i have lived my life thus far. I thought myself not to depend on others ever since i was 16. If u want something, then work hard to get it for yourself & if you fail, don't blame others but yourself. But what if your efforts seems to be in vain? What if every tiny bit of your body is telling you that u can't do it but your mind is telling u otherwise. Which will u follow? Ur Heart or mind?

Sometimes, we have to do something stupid in our lives just because it's the right thing to do. What i'm trying to say is that, I could have quit poly life & just find a job but my very soul won't let me... not after going so far to get there... I have to finish this road no matter what. So i wish & i asked my mom to pray as hard as she can in hopes that Allah could gaze upon me & bless me with the miracle i need to pass my exams & graduate from Poly.

Ya Allah please grant this wish... then maybe just maybe my faith would fully return. There's is nothing i want more than this... well this & wanting my late ex back alive but we all know that's impossible so ya please grant this wish for me.

Your partially faithful servant;

Mirza